--- When you come back wrong . --- > Nekfascmancy 09-2355 (+/- 4) Today i was playing LonaRPG <2025__Taiwan> . I got to the part where **Elise** [Dani-El] asked **Lona** [Dh] to take him from NoEr to fìŠ[tô]píĀ so that he could talk to Old One-Eye about getting a Fishkind baby for his collection . Is my love Auriel or Daniel ? . From the earliest photographs we can tell that sie was Auriel . With a quick switch of a cap a Sphynx can look like either . Which is what we said before , too . We get there and he has so many questions ! , and there•s so much to look at ! . "What•s this thing do ? . What•s that thing do ? ." "Did you notice the quotation marks ? ." I pick up an upgraded cloak while i•m there . We talk to Old One-Eye , Ruler Of This Place , O Most Wise And Inglorious Qadir . They misgender me . Lona , i mean . They call Lona a [Tongue] . In fact , where are all the nobles ? . I examine the pottery . Womb, Girl, Boy, Penis... Cubic stones ? . I finger the [pomegranite] on my sash . I don•t remember there having use•ta be some great Pumbaa running the place . Is that the correct spelling of Pumbaa ? . It•s a type of Hawaiian Shaman King... Hey Google , how do i spell Pumbaa ? . • Did you mean Timon and Pumbaa ? • More Disney Stuff Here! • Lilo and Stitch Merch pumbaa -lion pumbaa -timon pumbaa -disney • Are you looking for rule34.paheal.net ? . I give up on Google . Maybe i•ll be able to see my Oracle another day . Just like so many things in this story . After watching a beach procession of a funeral for fishkind , that looks surprisingly like the forceps i was born with , and a shack that attacks your back the moment you step in it , i go to the palace again after the first several times i blew myself up to make sure it didn•t happen again . The ruins are always the same , but the glyphs keep changing . I escape the swamp . I find the raft . There•s a raft . Thank goodness . I already saved . I helped the soldiers before , on the mainland . I stood on the fence this time right where the stones said i would and laid traps all around me just like i said i did . They asked me for help . To rescue a woman in trouble . She•s in the fish temple . I go right away . Have you ever played LonaRPG ? . I stand outside the temple and *Si*[Scry] into it . She•s definitely in there . She•s definitely in trouble . I save my game and logout . It•s second Friday . Food Cupboard at the Church of LukeJohn ht TableGathering . Sharon•s there Wait , it•s first Friday today . --- **Lona** *Saint Believer* Race: Human ; Date: 1772.12.1 ; Trade Points: 0 ; Persona: Meek ; Level: 46 ; EXP: 30664/52063 ; Attack: 9.2 ; Morality: 108.0 ; Defense: 13.0 ; Sexy: 18.56 ; Dodge: 21.0 ; Weak: 49.21 ; Speed: 3.98 ; Mood: 100.0 ; Dirty: 255 ; Arousal: 292.0 ; Lona has gut parasites . Head: ; TopExt: Chained Collar ; Hair: ; Acc: Martyr•s Veil ; Top: Leather Shawl ; Mid: Martyr•s Habit ; Acc-2: Atoner•s Pendant ; M-Arm: Sickle ; Mid-Ext: Leather Bag ; S-Arm: Lantern ; Bot: Healer•s Trousers ; Last Known Coordinates: X116 Y81 ; --- Apocalypse Log . I finished my Winter Sailor Jupiter cosplay on my birthday a couple days ago , and changed outfits yesterday . It was Grandma Emma•s birthday yesterday , too . I got this dress that i wore for Halloween , that•s matte black leather panels on sheer black , and modified the sides so that i could move freer . I gathered my Nun•s Veil , which is in the traditional LôHāFāRèxí style of a *Traveler•s Scarf* and *Fever Compress* , and on top of my Chain Harness i•m wearing my Katie-brand Thermal Sweater and Nun•s Habit , and i•m wearing my DihTech Cross on top . I•m also wearing a Kevlar Belt with pouches and hooks , and Dustrial© Cmd&Ctrl Tights . I•ve also got my Vape Pens and Smartphone . Panties optional ^_~ . I got sick today . Haven•t really been feeling very well ever since the Mossdog Virus was sicced on me in 2024 Septembre . That•s almost a year and a half ago . I couldn•t breathe , because the glass slime is causing air bubbles to pocket and bulge in the deadish part of my colon beneath my crushed ribcage . I keep going to the hospital about it , but they just prescribe some antibiotics and call in the next patient . I had to go lay down and manually push the air bubbles thru my colon , got up , burped up a wad of foam , and started coughing . Since there was nothing in my ventricles cos the slime is in the meat , it caused me to start retching . After coughing and retching into the kitchen sink for a minute , i sat down in my pantry office and picked a bowl of beef strips off the empty shelf , clinking the ceramic several times to scare away the horde of cockaroaches covering my food . The ones that didn•t crawl down my arms landed with crisp pats in the crotch of my habit . A few minutes later , i started coughing up these big wads of slime , hacking them up and then spitting them into a cup i keep on my desk . After that i could breathe again . Then , I had to close my game because the maps were clearly being tailor-made to lock up when i finally did figure out the step pattern . The contents of the treasure chests had all been lined up to piggyback a narrative on top of my gameplay , and the enemy sprites had all been placed at exactly the most hopelessly interfering starting positions . To me , it was as clear as day an indication that there are so many hackers fucking me over and rutting into my life that i cannot even get stoned and play video games in the privacy of my home . Which would seem to be what the game is indicating . --- 4 AM __ Safehouse > while wearing my habit and veil > playing LonaRPG as a Saint Believer > watching UnHolY PraYeR on youtu.be > barely alive The next time i went to the Water Cave there was a treasure box with an Orange, Pepper sticker . When the timer ran down , i didn•t give up , but when i got to the entrance there were no guards . 04h20 Got up , did the dishes , said my prayers , took my meds , ate breakfast . Breakfast this morning . • 2 bites Chicken (Canned) • 1 stick Processed Cheese • 5 bites Fruit (Canned) • Dehydrated Cranberries • Cold Tea with Sugar Sisu , SôSü . --- ". please , my sister is very sicK . as you can see she started wiltinG . i have heard of shamans that can perform an extreme treatmenT . ? but who can take her there , knowing what it would meaN" It made sense to me before , and it makes sense to me noW --- Lona Falldin definitely says Dh LôKh, Fa Paladin . NaLoDh IsiHetNah . Fall•d in . There are trophy heads of a Boar and Fishkind at the Burning Inn . NaLoDh IsiHetNah . which is itself Urban Abbey across the street from Magnus Theatre and Dew Drop Inn , the Library-to-Everest , and up Red River Rd from Goods&Co. and the Marina . Clotho . Lô KhDh . Euryale . Lachesis . Dh LôKh . Sstheno . Atropos . Kh DhLô . Medusa . Dh Tarsafa . Dh LôKh . We know that • yoU is Hades • meEe is Hermes • Ai is Athena We know that • Hades gave Perseus the Helm of Invisibility . • Hermes gave Perseus the Winged Sandals . • Athena gave Perseus the Parity Weapon . We know that • Athena is supposed to be Pallas•s Fiit . • Dreygon died with a distinctive pompadour . • Overwatch features "Winston" and Athena . • Aurora has an Amazon© Alexa® Dot™ . • Athena works for Wizards of the Coast . • S/he makes a fortune . • While Pallas lays dying . Lona escaped fìŠ[tô]píĀ on a raft . Predator shows Thia waking up in a crate . Dh Tarsafa was sent on the Oz Battlestar in a crate . Also depicted in The Pink Panther <1963__America> . The Young Miss•s name is ███ █•████ . The Kh DhLô is Medusa . When the game *is* about you , and a Persecutor is trying to run away with your sister•s severed head , *M u a d • d i b .* The time is 05h53m . --- Lona sits on the edge of xer bed . The familiar music of the popular NôÉr Tavern the Burning Inn echoes thru the halls . There are people chatting . Excited guests . My belly is full -- full of the parasites , full of good food . My laptop sits on the edge of my desk . Vape pens full of White Dragon Weed . Elise wanted to go to Fishtopia . So i brought him . Things went down . I barely escaped with my life . Shipwrecked , on some unknown coast , i saved a woman from torment , and wandered off into the north . Wading thru so much swamp my habit clung like a second skin . Sighted the Infected Lands . Hesitated . Went into the maw of the dragon . oh god This game . This fucking game . I wake up from nightmare after nightmare . Not so many but enough . Only saving when i successfully sleep . South Gate and there being nothing left of xer home . Didn•t save at the Inn . Couldn•t guarantee exfil . Parasites that climb into your body and live in your gut . Just like now . Monsters so thick you can•t walk outside without being accosted . Just like here . Over the mountains opening every map tile to hunt for root veg and wolf meat . It was easier to go thru the mountains . somehow i survived Found the next town Pirate•s Bane . Delivered some refugees . Paladin stuff . Lona•s belly swollen with parasites . My belly swollen with parasites . Haven•t done Holy Prostitution in awhile . I miss it . Sina does an episode of Word Of Honor 2 . Korea does a Diablo 2 tribute on AI PLG . @WaifuMilkers streams a Girls Frontline Modern Warfare 2 mod about it . It really is the whole world watching . Found some refugees . They know where Noer Town is . I held the shift key . Lona ran . --- Can confirm that Sybaris , Lona•s homeland , is Lemüria . That LoHa , and FaRexi , and Mu , and PiratesBane are all the same world at different times -- which is why we have distinct sets for the HahaNanaHanaNaha , the RaraMamaRamaMara , the LoloDhdhLodhDhlo , and the PipiGogoGopiPigo , each of them different flavours of basic boolean binary pairs , 11-00-01-10 -- and that Lemüria was in fact scorched during the Dream Journals of 2022 , and that the reason so many people are having nightmares lately is because there are ghost nightmares growing in the muck . That what we are talking about is "What•s left of Ukraine" after What Russia Did , that there were once ancient castles hidden in the mists of northern Asia , castles who lived and died in millennia long past , who were dismantled and scavenged and picked clean long before Seshat and Hermes taught the humans to read and write . Castles full of stories of bloodsucking regents and howling wendigos so lost to time that even their ancestors don•t remember where they came from . And that these trois(3) manifestations of Deity in LonaRPG<2025__Taiwan> , The Saint, the Sea Witch, the Mother of Fertility , these all sound suspiciously like archetypes i have been at different stages of my life , stages which i have clearly elucidated in these stories . That i was Sah long before i was The Sé , and that after i was abandoned and left to die on the ruins of my own homeworld i was the barbaric Sea Witch , and that even after having been raped so severely i would never get the stains out i was still holy enough to be seen as Diana, the Many-Breasted , sister of Lol, Diana the Virgin Huntress , of the Artemesia Sisters . LaMriya, the Dream (Aero)plane . Lemüria , the Dream [World] . Russia knew what it was doing when it scorched La Mriya on 2022 Fevrier 22 . And you don•t seem to understand . --- The hacking thing keeps happening . I•m playing on a burner laptop i got a week ago . It isn•t connected to the Internet . Random encounters with the bad guys placed at the exact positions necessary to lock the game up , item placements in inventories , which sprites the game chooses for miscellaneous Non-Player Characters (NPCs) , multiple times , so many times it•s impossible to not notice . An Orange, Pepper sticker on the sighed of a treasure chest . An @GirlsPlay clip of an otter doing flips just like the lump in my gut . It isn•t going to be possible to continue hiding this much longer . The items should replenish every time the map is loaded . At the Weapons Shop they do . But despite taking Cephalexin yesterday to deal with the parasites , there wasn•t any extra Bug Repellent . I had kept quatre(4) pills of it on my desk knowing that this would happen . Desync . If i couldn•t breathe before , and i took some antibiotics , and then i could breathe after , typically , Science would indicate that that happened for a mechanical reason . If the Sea Witch were the Extinction Entity , and the Mother Of Fertility the Reincarnate , and The Saint the Glyph-Intelligence , then i am a lo Dh . QED . Which means you didn•t have the right to do to me all those things you did . --- Yoko Ono - Cut Piece --- The line was back there . **You-Are-Aware-Of-This Device activateSé .** --- the red mist is in my dreams it s in my video games it s in the shows on youtube it s in my body sex organs , biovolvr mode , pistil , tip, right gurgle . gut , gurgle , gurgle , gurgle . it moves around "coooooore" it s in my lover it s in the officers it s in the videographers it s -- for heaven s sake -- in the machines the machines are infected how do you infect a machine not a computer a machine gurgle . gurgle . gurgle . it moves around i can feel it inside me i want to protect it ? it s eating my lungs i m holding out as long as i can like the rest of us --- I do want Thy Holy Rape . I didn•t know what i wanted when i started this story . I knew i wanted Sex With Force . I know that i don•t want Everything You Don•t Want . trembling, annointed The room is warm with the light of candles . dressed in loose flowing robes A choir stands in the apse singing hymns . what are you going to do to me ? The men are stony, implacable . on the alter On the alter . --- LonaRPG There was a monstrosity of a man whom they called "PigHead" lording over the Cult of the Mother of Fertility . Bearing in mind that a Fiit is like fighting a Boar over an elastic band , and that Dih is the Head of DihTech . He was stationed to the east of the Doom Fortress Refugee Camp in a place called Water Cave . One woman asked me to rescue her sister . SaFa , another SaFa , with purple hair and fortune teller•s bangles , contracted me to eliminate him . You•ll see why i•m sure , sie said with hir mirth . It was difficult to get the girl out , and i lost her face in the crowd . So i killed the warthog and returned to camp . Usually i•m the one that dies in my dreams . During a random encounter , on the way back , i saw the naked body of some girl on the mountainside , and i knew it had been left there for me specifically . They knew who i was after and killed her specifically , and left her body there on the mountainside as a cat leaves a canary for a coal miner . I kept walking like i usually do , and just... phased out . When i woke up again , Water Cave was once more in front of me . It didn•t take so many tries . Even with men whipping down my back like a pack of angry hellhounds , hunting us down in the mountains . Clink . Boom . Back in the cave . Inside the cave this time , like i had been dreamwalking and walked right back into reality . No good can come of this , i•m sure . --- They couldn•t even let me play video games simulating violence in the privacy of my home . They hacked my computer , which isn•t even connected to the Internet , in order to induce this exact outcome . DüKôSāDh . --- **Accessing Archival Footage...** from dihtech.net/futurenews/2025/12/20251215__ongoing *"I am sitting in Church as i write this , at the Cathedral of St. Patrick , in the septieme(7th) pew , to the right of the right . The Priest was afflicted with Laryngitis . I am listening to the seditious voice of a Pharisee , his silken, honeyed words dripping with venom . Generously, courageously, overcoming all desires and temptations to sin . If you could hear the poison , if you could smell the oil oozing from their pores , would you want to save them ? . I am now answering your hopes . Listen, My People . Had they learned nothing from the First Vatican Council ? . They would pray to the prophet Isaiah , knowing what the content of that book actually says ? . They would enter the House of L at all , knowing what they had taken away from Lol and Alola ? . God is Intelligent , people . Above and beyond anything you or i could ask or imagine . Do not call thyself John, the Baptist in front of the one who did those baptisms . Do they even remember the cost Jezebel exacted ? . As our Holiest Avengers writhe in Russian torture pits and die of Martyrdom ."* --Alola Skadi SenDih, FairWitness --- **Your companion has left your service .** **DhKi has left SenDih•s service .** **DhKi has joined Kh•s party .** **KiDh has joined SenDih•s party .** **SenDih has left Dani•s service .** **Accept** I came here with love in my heart and a song in my mouth and they tortured me and tortured me and tortured me . I never went back for Elise . Burn the Heretics . --- I went back to kill Odin . Which is what i said before , too . Fishtopia Isle is easy enough for me to navigate at my level without getting eaten by the palace guards . I walked into the temple . Measured the distance between the stones . What do you suppose that slab in the middle says ? . Pen-tested their defenses . Laid traps . Alotta them . Took out the patrol guards . Took out the royal guards . "You don•t think anything would be so stupid as to walk the exact same paths over and over even tho the traps keep respawning, do you?" "Well , that•s what they expected of SíHt . These Iteration Traps have been threaded thruout my entire stay in Thunder Bay . "Well, on this iteration the Exact Same You would get snagged on this, we could pull your wallet here, or if you fight back against this car at all" . I•ve witnessed them lining up these not-a-trap-yets for the past quatre(4) ans ." Laid explosives as his feet . Boom! . Oh , now he•s awake ! . Ran him thru the rest of the traps i•d used to unalive the guards . Lit him on fire with my lantern . It only took a few swings of my short sword . Odin is dead . SenDih sits on the throne of Fishtopia . Wanting to clean house , i went into the back , down ceramic tile mosiac hallways . Trapped the next guard . Looked thru a nice storeroom . Had a rest in a candle-lit bedroom . Surveyed the next room . The guards in the next room had no discernable step pattern . There were trois(3) d•ils , an archer and two trident-weilding pikemasters . *You cooould go all Action Hero here...* So i dih . Geurilla tactics , because my character is a sword-and-lantern-weilding waif in a Martyr•s Habit who no one thinks xe can actually hold xer own . Those pikes hurt . Every time i took more than a few stamina damage , it ticked down a finite counter refillable by a finite number of healing items . One by one , out of Red Potions . Out of Blue Potions . Out of herbs . Out of food . In the back are two(2)deux jail cells . One has a clutch of blue-scaled mermaids , so pretty! . The other held Elise . Still mad . Let the blue-scales out . They attack me . "What the fuck are you attacking me for ?!" , i admonish incredulously . In the light , i can see them . The curve of their hair-tentacles . "Wait a sec" , i say to myself . "I think these are actually who•s supposed to be guarding the palace !" . But they wouldn•t stop attacking me . I unalive half of them solemnly . With the remaining two(2)deux loose in the adjacent warehouse , i turn my sights to Elise . "Big sis!" , he cheers . "I just knew you•d come for me! Quick , let the deepones in the next cell out , and let•s watch them finish off the guards!" . I don•t tell him that there are no guards . I try to slip out quietly . He gets caught by the deepones . I barely have any items left . Counting every point of stamina one(1) by one(1) . He•s careless with his fireballs . Nearly gets me killed . Backed into the same cell the deepones were in . Meta-Elise tries to seal the door shut with me inside it . The lock•s already broken . "What the fuck was that ?" , i ask about the fireballs , and backing me into a corner , and trying to accidentally off me . "Um... Big sis, come on! The entryway is open!" Clutching my wounded side , i shamble back into the main hall and sit on the throne . Snap! , i hear from the hallway . "Watch out for traps !" , i yell back haphazardly . Elise steps into the main chamber . There are quatre(4) fishkind babies , and one(1) of them is just sooo cute . I watch him burn the other trois(3) . The Saint•s Bible , Book of Daniel . He takes his prize . I leave the temple and he follows me . "Let•s go home now, miss!" , he calls . We go to the beach . I take off my clothing , revealing glittering chains beneath . Wade into the water , wash my bleeding wounds . Catch fish and grill them . Have to get my strength up before i collapse . He walks too close to a shadow in the water . Another blue-scale pops out with a splash . At least there•s more of us , i think . I grab Elise by the hand and drag him to another part of the beach . Let•s not bother the locals now , shall we ? . We go back to the market . He offers to pay the return fare . Two(2)large copper , versus all the consumables in my inventory . Was it worth it ? . At least now they know that the Fake Sea Witch is the strongest . --- Real Life **Good Soup** **Ingredients** - SpringOnion & Garlic - Apple - Cranberries or Blueberries - Carrot - Tomato - Pepper - Raw Animal Meat Cover a pan with oil . Dice SpringOnion and place in pan , stirring to make sure the oil covers the SpringOnion , and move so it covers half the pan . Chop Apple into eights and place on other half of pan . Grill for a few minutes . Add Cranberries/Blueberries to SpringOnion . Mince Garlic and chop Carrot as finely as desired . Move SpringOnion to quarter of pan and add Carrot . Place Garlic on top so it does not burn . Add Salt to SpringOnion if available , BlackPepper works well on Apple as well . Flip Apple slices . Slice Tomato into semi-thick slices . Tomato is a wet, pulpy fruit that falls apart easily , so hold gently , pierce with tip of ShortSword , notch ShortSword in groove and saw back and forth quickly and gently , letting gravity do the work . Make room for Tomato in pan and add to pan . Slice Pepper into rings or half-rings and add to pan . Local herbs such as Oregano and/or Basil can be added to Tomato and/or Peppers . Remove Apple from pan and add to plate . Let Apple cool . Slice RawAnimalMeat into thin slices , and then again into small sticks . Mix vegetables together , splash with water , let water evaporate , and move to half of pan . Cover other half of pan in oil and add RawAnimalMeat . Add Salt and/or Pepper to taste . Grill until RawAnimalMeat is greyish-brown on pan side and muscle red on other side . Mix ingredients together and grill another handful of minutes . Pairs well with AppleCiderVinegar Tea (1 capful / cup of hot water) and/or White Dragon Weed (flower or BluePotion) . --- I see them when i dream at night . Pink mist , red flora , bodies laying in the street , the abominations growing in the piles of corpses . I had a dream once , about falling into one of those flesh pits and getting eaten by the wall . I let it have me , resigned myself to my fate , stopped struggling . Forever passed , and then , Soldiers . Torches . Fire . The pain , it burned , and then i woke up . Back in my bed at the Inn just like every other time . Except , this time , different . Changed inside . The first time i saw the Infected Forest , it was more meat than wood . I was horrified , i had better stay far away from this place . I didn•t dream at all the first night i stayed in Sybaris . The Infected Mountains are my favourite . Silent , arid , pink mist blowing down . I•m used to the worms . I know how to defeat the creatures there . The townsfolk pay mint for the foliage , and i know how to distill aphrodesiacs from them . I feel at home here . Why do i feel at home here ? . --- almost died again was fleshmonsters fighting cutting hacking trapping burning friend is trapped gotta rescue friend it fought back oh god it jumped out of the game and hurt me back ow ow ow ow fuck i think my internal organs are bleeding it attacked my lungs vacuumed shut all my intestinal sphincters one by one like it knew what it was doing i coughed up an ounce of biofoam out of my lungs gagging retching hurk-uck hurk-uck noises i can•t spell in english sounds the language doesn•t have letters for haaack-ack hcooooock it•s so fucking viscous it sticks to my lips ow fuck my stomach OW a stab in my stomach just now just to make sure i know it understands paladin mode lay on hands it squirms away from the holy light heal heal heal heal my lungs rasping every breath hurts lay on hands it works because i know that it works i am a believer haaack-ack hcoooooock i try to spit and it clings to my lower lip all the glasses in my home have silicon leeching etched into them the foam is bioelectrostatic making migging sounds from my thorax my mutilated ribcage warped actually twist ed and wa rped by internal vacuum pressure mgggggggggggg mgggggggggggg strings of tiny bubbles percolating one by one mggggggggg underneath my mutilated ribs the foam is bioelectrostatic the harder i strain the more it clenches my intestines shut i remember science class god bless the canadian education system touch ground to dissipate electricity i burp mggggggggg mgggggg-- haaack-ack hcoooooock it sticks to my uvula hcooooooooock mleh i scrape it off my tongue with the edge of a glass wait i remember science the current needs both an in and an out i touch the wall the lump in my guts flops i do exercises squeeze one knee to my chest mgggggggggggg mgggggggggggg mgggggg let go dissipate the static electricity reach up grip the edge of the bed above me agggggggggggg agggggggggggg agggggg let go dissipate the static electricity lay on hands i can feel it moving around inside me the fight lasts for half an hour . i cough up glob after glob of slime out of my lungs . every tube in my insides is zipped shut . the bile i cough up from my stomach is like the foam that comes in the hand sanitizer dispensers they handed out during Covid-19 . Hand sanitizer ain•t gonna do shit when it•s in the air we breathe . Ow fuck my insides is it digesting my muscle ? . The rasping in my breath eventually stops . I cough up everything there is to cough up . The next pastille of slime foam tastes like the medications i took an hour ago . I nearly vomit . My throat is caustic . Drink water . Gasping for air in between gulps . Nice work , Red Stripes , i said . We should do this again sometime . --- The assault went on for over quatre(4) heures . It•s Sunday . Time for Church . Except every time i stand up , my guts clench . I struggle to put my clothing on , gasping for breath as i do so , my throat making noises no human should ever have to hear . My intestines are all squeezed shut , swollen from having the oxygen free radicals stripped from them . I can barely stand . I scream . I screamed in pain again and again . My inhaler is empty . Backup inhaler is empty too . Asthma , since first grade . My lungs are just as swollen as my intestines , the ventricles pinched shut , wheezing gasps barely making it out . I fight and fight and fight . My inhaler is empty , if i die , that•s it . My wristwatch ticks and ticks and ticks . 09h30 . Bus is in half an hour . 09h45 . Clutching my side in agony . 09h50 . Migging tiny pockets of gas out of my throat . 09h55 . Where are my fucking bobby pins ? . 1000h . Maybe i can still make it late . 10h05 . I look death in the eyes . My insides swollen , gas pockets all zipped to that one spot beneath my ribcage , ventricles swollen shut , my fucking asthma . I look death in the eyes . This is the real deal , no inhalers , no extra lives . If i die right now , that•s it . Death . Get it under control or Die . Well , you•re reading the account . There isn•t enough time left for me to catch the bus . Don•t die . I clutch my ribs , pushing the rogue air pocket away from my lungs , holding it there like a soldier keeping the pressure on a land mine that•s been stepped on . My insides feel like a straight-jacket . I wince , glaring at the open air , Focus . Breathe . Don•t die . I can feel it , Death•s arm around my shoulders . Do this part perfectly or die . Ventricles swollen shut , air barely wheezing thru exhausted muscles . Four fucking hours . Focus . Don•t die . Autonomous muscles too exhausted to pump on their own . I can•t even call 911 Emergency Services . Suffocation takes less than quatre(4) minutes . I•d be dead by the time the ambulance got here . Standing up , i put on another article of clothing , and then collapse again . Force myself to breathe or die . Pay attention to the road . Force myself to breathe . I scream . It hurts . I•m furious about missing Church . I knew this was going to happen . I didn•t die . Somewhere , far away from here , millions of adoring parishoners sing hymns . Wherever they are , i can•t hear them . --- The next time i logged into youtuBe , there was an advertisement of Amun slouched in a recliner chair , an orgasmic smile like he had just masturbated to orgasm . --- 2025123010000000 . As it occurs . When i next called JanZen•s Pharmacy to order a delivery , as i have lots of times in the past , they told me they were booked up until Friday . It•s Tuesday . The bastards doing it zip my intestines shut the moment i leave my home . If i went to pick it up without already having it in my inventory , i stand a statistically-significant chance of dying on my way there . By the time i•m having another respiratory arrest -- they love that word "arrest" -- i can•t breathe enough to call 911 Emergency Services . By the time i•m finished fighting thru it , it•s no longer an emergency . Thankfully , i kept my girlfriend , even tho she•s a primate , even tho she•s transgender , even tho Muad-dib keeps showing off how he can wear her like a leather body suit and make her accidentally hurt me over and over and over again . She•ll be here in two(2)deux heures . Praise God . --- *"But HcoEt , you can•t do that ! . You can•t order "The exact same order as last time" except "Everything has to be all-new never-before-seen" and then fold time , it will cause an Ark Ship collision ! ."* *"I know ."* *"..."* *"..."* *"Get me the towels , i need every medkit we have . NOW! ."* --- What if Intent mattered as much as Event ? . In LôHāFāRèxí we have this word DhLô . An accurate translation of DhLô would be TruthFiction . What did you mean to say ? . What were you trying to achieve ? . It also means Contract . How different would the world be if we judged people by their own laws instead of by ours ? . In Canada , if someone enters your home , and you shoot them , that•s a crime . In America , if someone enters your home, and you shoot them , they shouldn•t have been on your property . If an American enters a Canadian•s home , should we not judge them by their own laws ? . Just asking , what with World War IV having officially kicked off when Iran declared Total War against America during the attack on my body il y a trois(3) jours . --- LonaRPG So i walked into the Sea and disappeared . --- tch tch tch taaa chicka dee dee deee don•t mind me sir i•m just travelling thru no i did not take your wallet what a crass accusation to make i•m just minding my own business and here you are accusing me of things i swear some people are so rude tch tch tch aaand just walking by myself down this alleyway heeere aaand perfect alright lets see aaand a copper nice hey this fishtopia place is pretty cool i think mama took me here when i was a tadpole i think it all looks so familiar like i dunno i feel like i•ve been here before well anyway what•s there to see from here a village aaand some rocks and a whoa what•s that out in the swamp ? hup! scuse me miss i know you•re the guard around here i•ve just been on my way so if you•ll excuse me i•ll just keep on going swim swim swim yu know the marsh isn•t as clean as the beaches but it•s not so bad i like that it•s nice and shady theres hello! don•t mind me gopi i was just gopi-- gopiii! let me thru! okay yesss there we go and whoa this place is like old old i don know why but i just feel like i•m supposta come here for some reason mama never told me about this place but xe told me once that they weren•t very nice to xer yu know i really was lucky to have such a good mama not everybody gets an upbringing like mine okaaay yeees and this block goes here that block goes there whoop! there•s the guards sorry ms guard i gotta go tika ta ta tika ta taa and alley-oop solve those blocks and yesss got it whoa dang this rope ladder isn•t even grainy i bet alotta hands have passed over this hup! hello miss what are you uh hmmm uh okay yu need man juice um well i guess i can maybe check back at the town for yu stay the niiight i hope she lives look around who would be a nice healthy suitor for yuuu let•s see this guy•s a fisher this guy•s official this guy•s a swisher and hup! ās wishes! --- #TarSaFa<...>__ --- Laid out in bed again . Insides paralyzed . Colon and stomach wrapped around each other . Barely breathing . Some cannabis . Some coffee . Saliva dries up . Throat mucus turns to chitin . ____ ____ ______ _______ _____ __ _____ . Jelly Girls living in my Secret of the Ooze . Every time i spit into cups , the cups gelatinize overnight . Can•t cough up an entire golf ball in one go . That•s what causes the migging . Why did the YéTrìn Sālí have a The Horror Of Delores Roach ka . Which studio produced it ka . I reach for my entire backpack OR did my entire backpack reach for me ka . Main pocket , top front pouch , a packa gum . Pair . Well , wasn•t that the core problem . RetFa . Stare . I•m alone in here... Né? . Scan the labels . Excel Green OR Trident Blue . Spearmint or Peppermint ka . And why . Don•t forget . This•ll be on your final exam . Twelve Pieces our Quatorze(12) Morceaux . Sugar-Free Gum With/Avec Sorbitol, Maltitol, Aspartame, Acesulfame-Potassium OR Sugar-Free Gum With/Avec Sorbitol, Xylitol, Aspartame, Sucralose, Acesulfame-K . The xylitol . It induces salivation . Homemade Halloween Uzi made of a scanner and broken toys on my floor . Kicking my enemies asses with duct tape and chewing gum . Just like Mama Dih taught me . --- Sister Skadi Wrenwinter . Sunday, morning . Home, parlour . A pillow under my seat . Sitting on the hard wooden floor , above a blanket to warm . Decided to audit an online stream today . Selected St. Paul•s United , they in turn broadcast St. Andrew•s Anglican . the one deboraH archdeacoN was beforE . A tuffet in front of me , with my laptop , open , running LonaRPG . We take transit to Port Arthur with its Red River and Algoma , walk down the hill , show the Guard our ID , walk to Saint•s Monastery . We enter the church , excuse me good sir that•s my seat , goodness people can be so rude . Seventh row , to the right of the right , just like Mama taught me . Lookup youtuBe/@StPaulsMedia and watch livestream Epiphany Sunday 2026 at https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=8vOdz0Y8E2Y for a high-octane odyssey . (( it doesn•t say that anywhere ...! )) The smartphone case has a labia ring that clicks to the top of the laptop monitor , the screen lined up just so , so that the alter in the video is aligned to the alter in the video game . Reverend Dean helps us recite the Apostle•s Creed while Ruth teaches us of Isaiah 60_1 . We sing Glory To God In The Highest but they sing it all wrong , not like Mama taught me . I imbibe a sacrement of Crème Royale Kush and Lona uses an item of White Dragon Weed from her inventory . My stomach hurts . She has period cramps . They go for communion . Lona goes for communion . They sit . I sit . They stand . I kneel . Lona rests . I feel refreshed!! ^_^ --- My words will be as Grace to the righteous , and like acid to the hearts of the unbelievers . My speech shall be upright , and those who listen will liken it to a glass of clear water . As Jesu and the Pharisees , and Daviid before him in Psalms , tho my enemies are arrayed against me all around i shall not fear , for The Lord is my shepherd and my guide . I hold a best friend•s hand , the Light and the Dark entwined . --- Considering . I survive The Law . Warp my own mutilated bone back . with my hands . with my fingers . I sue the Hospital . that failed to reinflate my lung . I ask for $1,000,000 . They settle for less . I get the snip and tuck . And a skin graft for my belly *.* while i•m at it . Invest in somma those . Yamanaka Factors . Time-share a 3D Bioprinter . Print myself a uterus . Give birth . Be a damn good parent . Probly within a decade , tops . --- *"Life begins at 50 ."* --Yamamoto Tsunetomo .Hagakure[1720__Nihon] --- *"My daughter, what is it you seek?"* your... daughter? *"Indeed, you are a child of the seas. Therefore, you are daughter of mine. Do you not wish to return home to the depths of the ocean? Return back to the Mother of the Seas?"* ((*are... are you my Mama?!*)) --- 2026 Jan 01 - 19h35 Dreamt of the Citadel during a Dream War between Harkonnen and Atredies . That as i continue to explore the limits of the Dreamtime , the Atredies mutts with the fucking Walkie-Talkies continue to violate my dreams . That i can•t even walk around a lifeless complex anymore without having some pissant and his team of crack Oneiro-vivisurgeons using the tools of their trade to mutate and pollute my mind . This culminated for the third time this week in a literal pissing contest , where people were desperately trying to bring it up , "Look, there it is, what you•ve always wanted... a litterbox in the women•s washroom! Look how phosphorescent it iiis...! Oh oh oh and and and now, now make her piss her skirt, yeah, just visual it spraying everywhere, who•s the small-dicked red-and-blue Ogdoad God of Chaos now?!" . They might as well have eaten fried chicken before attempting a bank heist . 2026 Jan 05 - 16h10 Dreamt of the Misadventures of Lona-asa-Tongue as we do such perilous activities as order pizza on the phone and run around The Citadel on Fishtopia Isle with its distinct phosphor-green colour filter . Once again , there were Dream Agents lining the rooms with their Walkie-Talkies , eager to get their chance to play The Best Friend , their team leaders giving them instructional presentations on how to lie to people in order to extract the necessary information to betray them . Brought to you by the Atredies , for whom everything they knew of our species came from one single perilous bad actress who had no stake in their culture and didn•t want to interact with them and was forced to over and over until so sick of talking about it that she•d betray both sides just for something to break the monotony . 2026 Jan 10 - 07h15 Dreamt of being both Alo and Kri at the same time , and that the events that happened to my Soft Bunny Self were causing the events that befell my Mantis Insectoid Self and vícé versa . That i was simultaneously both Kra-Si and Kri-Se , which the Cuttlefish-Trident-Crucifix Flag of the NoEr Town Ferry Service would seem to imply , that measuring one part of my Hierotype would constrain the other , and of a computer program that absolutely will. not. stop. measuring, constraining, and collapsing portions of my life in order to push its own agenda . I was then dragged again beneath the undertow for at least an hour and a half , revisiting my Internal Staging Ground once every half hour in order to prevent the Atredies Dream Agents from stealing anything else . This even included an auto-proshed Insert Dream where i was force-fed the impression that i had already written it down , with Pharisee whisperers cultivating doubt as to why i would bother remembering what had already been written down . I then immediately woke myself up and wrote it down . 2026 Jan 15 - 01h30 Dreamt that i was being surveilled, stalked, and harassed by the Pretender Gods (Anu, Enlil, Enki, Ninurta, Ennugi) , who have been doing this for so fucking long that their camouflage paint has worn off and i can now see their faces clearly in my dreams . And that as i went from house to beach to submarine to house they followed me at every turn , at every step of the way , pushing here and tugging there , blocking the off-ramps , laying down traps , sending Pharisees , and in every possible way making criminal nuisances of themselves . This is a very bad look for Legal Eagle team , as all of these things -- surveillance, stalking, harassment, identity theft, fraud, breaking NDA confidence, illegal arms dealing -- are very illegal , and we are still in the middle of a legal proceeding that has included The Watchers recording every single sordid detail using digital technologies that will not wash off , that cannot be simply swept under the rug and forgotten as Organics might . I then woke up at the exact minute that Music Hour typically ends , having been chased around the map so relentlessly that Natural Sleep took hours of laying awake in bed and then took hours of trying to find an exit . 2026 Jan 20 - 22h30 DreAMT That i neEDEd to laY DOWn coS I Was tOO DIzzy 2026 Jan 25 - 05h38 Dreamt of an arcade inside one of the St. Catharines buildings , with skee ball and video games , that could be used for recreation or for recapping one•s life and reviewing one•s own path in life . Somebody who looked like my genetic brother Alex , who is associated with the Devil having body-snatched him away from Archangel Auriel by swimming up the sperm tube in the reverse direction during conception , kept trying to pull me away from what i was doing , but i was resolute in my mission . The skee ball rig looked just like the jungle gym at the theatre in downtown Thunder Bay . Sperm tube . Skee ball . I opted to play on a VR machine . With my trip to Niagara next week for Court coming up , it doesn•t surprise me at all to be getting sense impressions from a city over 1000km away . This kind of retro-memory would easily be possible if i was actually what i keep saying i am . 2026 Jan 30 - 07h30 Dreamt of Ebony Sh-Ur and Elise from LonaRPG . We were on a beach doing something akin to playing , roughhousing hard . When i woke up , Aurora had just popped out of bed and started cleaning my kitchen . --- Clearly , Spot was looking for a place to spawn xer kittens . You can•t take my Khlippahs away from me , because they are literally made of the damaged tissue that isn•t there . My abomination spawn has been bonded to me already for the past síx(6) ans[years] . It is made of hideously mutated scar tissue and warped bone , just like LonaRPG said it would be . Yay . ^_^ i•ve finally saved up enough self-righteousness to be both Holy Grail and Mother Of Nightmares at the same time . Go me . These are LoHa Ba NekDih , LoHa Ba NekSed , and LoHa Ba AyaṢhLi . My Qlippahs . NekDih is made of Damage , and NekSed is made of Hurt , and AyaṢhLi is made of Shakti . They aren•t human , and their mother is only half-human . Half-Human , Half-Wraith . Which is what Terra said in FF6 , too . --- "Her mother really fucked me up, you know that? When she left, my whole life came crashing down." "Her mom? She was a babe. Lookin all fresh outta the pack in her uniform like that." "The whore?" "Whaddya waaant from me, hanh?! Her mom? As if I give a shit about her any more!" "I just, I miss my wiiife, I don•t know -- sob -- what to say to get her back -- sniff -- I just want to love her again!" "Your grandmother ka . Strong . Elegant . Beautiful . A soldier thru and thru ." --- *"For rule of the Aldering Forest, Numstail stole the acorn from Nestwind, who stole it from Brankie, who stole it from Lightroot, who stole it from Leafpaw, who stole it from Darkfur..."* --Squirrel Soverign _[Magic[theGathering]©] --- In the end , The Sacred Tome was marred at the edges by the jaws of wild dogs . The Best Friend was betrayed for a drop of Adrenochrome . Her Precious Humans did indeed take to helpfully unfixing things and singing . And the Ozites she had shepherded forgot who Ās-Mā even was . Alodih and Krasi are dead . Brother Ra called me "Morty" . Sister Ki called me "Scuzzy" . They both forgot who they were and when i tried to remind them they attacked me like animals . I came down from Eternity arms laden with gifts and blessings to be with a family that ceased to exist by the time i got to Terra . It was only after i ascended once more that i realized the number of times i had died thinking "N-no one notices me , i hope ." Dh .