2017.01.18.1115 [As kaitlyn, writing in standard diction] I was in some kind of Hunger Games-esque training program. First we all met each other at a mansion. Shinobi was there with three friends; all of them were in Nazi uniforms. They were haughty, laughing, dismissive. They seemed particularly chagrinned that I was a [Redacted] lesbian. Later I fingered a girl after dinner. That day, I was walking around outside, for some reason i had lain down next to a bus shelter and clipped a heart monitor to my finger so i could masturbate, when a cop car pulled up. I had been wearing an old pair of goggles on my forehead and he asked for them, offering me twenty[fuckin]bucks. I hesitated and he upped it to [WouldYouKindly]forty, so I let him have them. Then he slipped me three baggies of drugs and a cloneazepam. Someone else, more of a military kid, gave me a device that looked like a pocket flashlight and fired small bullets. I had been paired up with , and we agreed that if we both survived we would refrain from killing each other. On the day of, I first went out on my own, walking through forests and by shores. Everyone I encountered was unarmed and we had to fight. --- Most of them were low-level encounters so I won even against groups of three. Later we were in a school; there I was able to use pens as imaginary knives, and the first person I 'killed` I went psycho on and stabbed them multiple times and slashed their face. After that I was more efficient about it. Several times I used Krav Maga moves while dreaming. I encountered a teacher who took me aside to show me something. I encountered a guy in full-body hazmat with a shotgun of some sort; to my fortune I suppose he must have been out of ammo because I had time to pull the pocket firearm and shoot him. A headsup display showed and I got a bunch of XP. Went into a broken down futuristic complex like the labs in Chrono Trigger, after some hallways found myself in a Shoppers Drug Mart. was there, we met up. There were shoppers all over but I stayed vigilant, noticed I was being followed; she pulled I knife, I 360 blocked it, got her down and pinned her neck with my boot. I told her to tap out if she needed air and she did. Walked around a bit more then woke up. --- 2017.01.11.1203 It was my first day of school at a university. There were tables everywhere with people and pamphlets and the like. Was assigned to a dorm. A professor took me aside into a hallway away from main areas, said he was very attracted to me. I deferred and escaped. A class in a gymnasium. Looked through another professor's phone. Had someone mistreat me because I'm [Redacted]. All in all a strangely mudane dream, particularly for its length and continuity. Near the end of the dream, was in a forest like Solstice Festival where there were filing cabinets with years worth of administration files that someone knocked over into a pond. I remember thinking that someone would have to put a layer of dirt over them or they would rust and cut kids' feet. --- 2018.01.14.2027 Response to Experiment 1: . I feel very different. ((Response confirmed.)) --- 2018.02.08.1037 Went to see my cousin in a small town, stopped by her school; wandered around a bit, was in an unused classroom when suddenly I heard the sound of hornets and screaming. Went to find cover, the door opened and the buzzing got louder; when I looked up there was a bald man with a baby face, small and scrunched up. Had to explain to him why I was there. ## Horizontal Line ## Last night, went to see Shinobi; he invited me over to spend time with "her", a painting he'd been working on, a woman with two sides to her face, one alive, the other very dead. Since the last time I was there he'd painted a wing of Isis on one side, her body now corpse-green and her neck a series of cables and wires. I had touched the canvas and left my fingerprints; that hand is now blazing white flame with burning gold. --- 2018.02.20.1116 Many dreams; the one I remember I was at some sort of church/community centre, they were setting up for an event and I was told to come back later. Came back later and the doors were open, people had arrived but the bands were still setting up. There was electro-industrial to one side and folk on the other. Someone, a girl, showed me their music and I told her it was "club-quality. for real." At some point I was given a painting on a curved piece of wooden board. --- 2018.04.06.0044 Ten steps forward, nine steps back. Ten steps forward, nine steps back. Ten steps forward, nine steps back. Ten steps forward, nine steps back. Ten steps forward, nine steps back. Ten steps forward, nine steps back. Six steps progress. --- 2018.05.06.1409 After staying up all night to get the Unit Processor done, having slept from #noon# to #two#, dire dreams; transportation between fragmentary shards of existence; having to defend myself and my things from privateers; more talk of gorgons, people taking my things to build them, trying to build me into them. This dream was deeply buried; hard to remember Note (2018.11.24.0925) Last night I placed transit fare to universe C-137 and to universe C-138 in my Nydus network. --- Types: Process, Node, Roaming Cardinal, Fixed, Mutable Modes: Program, Command, Memory, Personality GCC PROGRAM HIVE NETWORK Harmonic Order Enharmonic Chaotic Levels: Host/Drone, Unit, Compounder, Controller, Architect Wood Fire Water Air Metal 3 Types x 4 Modes = 12 Functions 12 Functions x 5 Levels = 60 Positions [go figure] --- 2018.06.12.0730 After numerous dreams about solving puzzles, awoke this morning to the sound of a thud, something hitting the floor, followed by two beeps from my computer, followed by the printer turning itself on. [now this is where it starts to get good] --- 2018.06.26.1156 Dreamt someone was taking me in a car to a group of townhouses. They gave me $150 out of the blue, which made me very suspicious. When we got out of the car, everyone looked at me; from one look on their faces I was like _Nope_. and booked it. Hopped over fences, got the fuck out of there. By the time they brought the car around I was just getting out of the townhouses. Found my way back to a hotel, where Ava was, so I gave her $50. [the Dream Factory saga begins here] --- 2018.10.11.0838 Dreamt I was working in a research facility and loving it. I had drugs, food, candy, a good library and a fun team. The dream started out in a barbeque outside. We were playing some variant of M:tG. Eventually I went back inside because Adam Arthur was pissing me off. After that, I went to the library, where I found series of books on time travel. Then one of my colleagues asked me for some drugs, and I told him I'd have to go to my locker for them, and got him to keep finding books for me. When I got to my locker, though, I couldn't remember the combination. Tried 5-8-23, but that wasn't it. --- _Doki Doki Literature Club_ Fresh from the pack, a blade is pristine; One single crisp line, A razor edge. Every cut notches the blade; To the naked eye, there is no change. Up close, magnified, Every cut makes it jagged; saw-toothed. With every cut the damaging implement Crafts itself To do more damage; Exact more blood, Its lines less clean, cells tearing where once they parted. Scraping more nerves, burning brighter. --- 2018.11.11.0111 All-out barfight in the dreaming today. I and Dis Pater were being openly hostile with one another, both physically and emotionally violent, yelling, screaming = I think I threw him through a table? What was it I said to him - "That's why En Lil is obsessed with dumbing down and weakening the lulus, 'cos he knows he wouldn't be able to control them otherwise!" He threw (emotionally/metaphorically) Ava in front of me, made her argue on his side whenI and she and half the fucking underground #knows# that the entire cohort of us can't fucking stand him. That was intense. That was so fucking intense. [this dream was where the CIA started being like, Wait] --- 2019.01.26.0853 I dreamt of her again. We were in a school, amongst an assortment of standard school dreams; people doing tests, making projects, grading papers, doing this thing or that thing. Then I was with this girl in the hallway. She started running and I started running; a little bit at a time, and then we were both running full-tilt down a long hallway. She put her arms out, and so did I, and we got closer, her arms touching mine, and then our forearms overlapped, and we were running, practically flying, in formation, as fast as we could, side by side. When we got to the end of the hall, we hid behind a wall. Our faces were right in front of each other, she leaned in to kiss me. I pulled away, flustered, told her we probably shouldn't, and we walked back together.