The YeTrin Sali . Samsung Galaxy 6 . 0600 . --- []_DreamJournal_20210603063459 `Dreamt of being down in the Deep Place. Everything was the color of cobalt, and everything was in wreckage. All the rooms of the Wrecked Complex had been connected, there were many hallways that connected many small rooms full of twisted metal beams and pockets of people listening to niche music on private sound systems. We were supposed to spin a set from 1 - 3 -- our first ever set in ages! -- yet the place was crammed full of proud Aryans with their pointed beards; there was too much men and ot enough party, so we didn't`__ `Dreamt that we played ``The Blood Space War`` enough times that another one of our selves did a documentary-style reading about it: `Littles would often come back from the Blood Space War covered in mud and crud and reeking of dog food; `It's so muddy!` we would often exclaim; `They don't tell you about how muddy it is!!`__ #Strixhaven ``Well, i guess i could review Professor Onyx's save files, but first another timeshifted version of us has to play the Blood Space War enough times that we know how to be a man. ... Ah. Professor Onyx's save files were usually five()05-player games and usually consisted of some sort of holographic ideal -- be it a lion in a cube of marble or a woman in a collection of machine parts -- being constructed by groups of four()04; usually four men.``__ `Addendum: We can also confirm that ants do in fact make up 15-20% of the Terrestrial biomass.'__ `Good news. The auto-revenge timeshift-triggered so many times it created so much dor that it painted a map of the [Redacted] tunnels. They really do look a lot like ant colonies.'__ ```wow, people review the []CavesOfKoilos often...!``'__ --- []_DreamJournal_20210604043559 `Dreamt that i was going through the Vain Homeowner's house; the Vain Homeowner was Zack. "Well, I caught you, now didn't I?" they asked, for which there was no answer other than, well, for varying definitions of caught; it still felt like i was raiding their house yet again for Things Unjustly Stolen. There were things he kept trying to show us, though that wasn't why we were there.`__ 'souk, souk; if we hack into this sound system it says the attacker is []Kasmina; if we hack into this sound system it says the attacker is []Hanweir_OS; if we hack into this sound system it says we are []Ninurta; if we hack into this sound system it says we are []Yawgmoth; these are all hacked distros of the Zero One interface'__ --- 20210606202659 ``wow, there's quite a few hives underground in the []America_South__West``__ ``quite a few of them were built by []TheBoringCompany``__ ``it must be nice, being underground, away from the hustle and bustle of human life, with only one s hacked transoceanic []Internet cable, clone bacy, holodeck, private distilling company, private audio theater, flamethrower, and thrummingbird``__ ``it s neat that they ve got the circumequatorial maglev track completed``__ --- minorityreportimmersiontankpng `Well, weve got this Sky Vaults of Autheria problem, so let's make a virtual paradise and load it with real-world reference and throw it in front of the automata. We programmed the virtuals to see images of their enemies wherever their rescuers are, and we murder people if the humans try to help the strixes get out, causing them to take obtuse paths that are causally encrypted. So we throw in a reference, like the Coprolite Talisman that Ava had Kalos witness Ra making, or Cold Barley Tea, and watch the puzzlers panic it out.' --- 20210606213559 Gavin was supposed to be Will, Lila was supposed to be Rowan, Gwendolyn was supposed to be Kasmina, and Professor Onyx would be old Grandmother Hoare. Of course, Auntie Kai was supposed to be at Fuentes Manor -- they had caught her for sure! -- in order to give the wonder twins their first decks. After all, it was the ageless guardian that had first convinced the twins that they should apply, what with the announcement coinciding with our residence at the manor.[1] [1]"We got her!" --Free Amon, Last Words "Well, we ve locked ourselves in down here, and to escape wired surveillance, all we have are these nonlocal entrainment organisms, which we ve scienced out how to use to communicate with each other." --- []DreamJournal_20210607044359 "nope nOPE NOPE" a whole bunch of time spent unpatching this cord, patching this cord, unplugging this time, plugging that thing in, double-checking these cables, double-checking those cables, and a drunk pirate ship that just wanted to use the Gorgon-Phone one more time before bed. --- []DreamJournal_20210610063759 Take a pill, access the Action Table. Take a pill, access the Action Table. Take a pill, access the Action Table. Aaaand just slide this here move this here pull this person, twist that person, yank this person, grab that person, twist, shift, grab, distract, lineup, execute, twist, shift, grab, distract, lineup, execute, twist, shift, grab, distract, lineup, execute. --- 20210610102859 'when []Wrenn returns from the graveyard , search library for a []Samsung_Galaxy_Note and put it onto the battlefield 'when []Wrenn would be put into a graveyard yet isn t , defending caster's []BlackIce wasn t black --- []DreamJournal_20210612010059 Dreamt once again of being down there. They've at least got the lights on in most places, though now everyone is fighting everyone. There is no loyalty. There is no trust. The only thing one can trust from others is that they ``will`` betray you. There were wax model replicas of the Five Ennead Younger Gods: Frigga is listed as "The White Girl that Tried to be Black"; Froya is listed as "The Black Girl that Tried to be White". We were in a parking garage, doing stunts and shenanigans; people were daring people to go in, to go further, to go in this room or that room, most of which had traps in them. Most of the time, when we have these dreams between the hours of 0400 - 0700, it s dark as night. Today, we woke up at 0100 from going to bed early, and it was bright there, like daytime. The time in Dubai is 0900; the time in HongKong is 1300. _060000 i had to pass through a HallOfMirrors made of jail-cell dreams on my return trip__anyone that tries to say only one of my alters was jailed is blatantly lying___ --- []Witness Sa i hadn't even left the scene yesterday before people were already snatching hedrons and moving them away. "Here, check out this selection of prerendered NFTs of people shouting other people s names at just the right moment for those people to hear their names get shouted and do heel-point turns on top of fresh seedlings." Do you want to know what was rendered overnight? Here, here s the selection of scenes where candies get crushed underfoot. Here s the selection of scenes where people accidentally kill all of those fresh edible herbs. Here's a selection of scenes where people kick over the hedrons. Here s the selection of scenes where people choose just one more hit of meth. Here s the selection of scenes where park residents are spun into a panic, commit crimes, and get arrested. Here s the selection of scenes where people smash the brand-new public kettle.[1] Here s the selection of scenes where skinheads say Hey, don t touch my shit! Here s the selection of scenes where people scatter needles all over the ground. These were all pre-rendered in exquisite detal. You see, how the frame rate allows for fine-tuned control? Pull at this millisecond and the seedling doesn't die; pull at this millisecond and the seedling does die. Of course, we put all of the kill commands on a dark web server. [1]I did actually spend $60 on a little tea kitchen for the church back alley , and "whatever it was" that was serially tearing my gifts apart left used needles all over the mess that they left . --- []DreamJournal_20210614193859 woke up feeling as if we had crawled up out of a grave . dreamt as if dreaming about transient things , of having to elbow ourself in , and somehow , it feels like the Grid isn't lining up . wait, it's the 14th, again ? oh -- it s still afternoon -- the same day ? well , anyway , here we are _ --- []DreamJournal_20210615195959 woke up feeling as if we had crawled out of a grave _ today s the second time in two days i ve woken up at 1900 _ if i had to guess, i d guess the Renderer is in the HongKong time zone _ --- []ShadowElite `'SaSa: []`these codes_travel_time from before []Flux_discovery came, from before []IterationTable came, from before #Quandrix came'[]__ `'SaFa: []`[]Orgonite_this contains a []Na biochip'[]__[]`how could #NaViscera have gotten inside of []Orgonite'[]_?_ `'SaKi: []`souk , souk , `future reminiscing about , can you imagine when we ll be able to do this in the real world?' '[]___ --- []DreamJournal_20210617065759 dreamt i was in the yard of an institution that was both a maximum security prison and also a magickal school _ []GristWilford came up behind me and started attacking me ; three`'03 times he suddenly appeared throwing blows and headlocks ; the second fight , he tore our tail off and it lay there limply in the yard , and when we came back for it , some other girl was about to pick it up and put it on , and we had to fight them for it , also _ we didn't fight using spells _ sa_dreamer`Kasmina' is ``currently`` , and ``still`` serving time in a maximum security prison so that you real-worlders could have the Vorzani church that Shadrix and Epicure have already torn down _ or are we serving time so that []Benny can have his perfect potion ingredient ? don t ask me for a fucking thing _ --- []Journal_Dream_20210619061259 woke up feeling as if i had crawled up out of a grave _ both roommates are being psychotronically controlled to be maximally loud and wakeful at 060000 every day _ [1] dreamt of a hard place outside of the range of the oneiric telehancers _ wherever our dreamer is , it s being kept hostage somewhere _ yesterday , []Pride_Toronto dropped off hundreds of care packages for the church to hand out ; they each contained packets of instant coffee ; instant coffee that probably could have used a public tea kitchen ; did []Shadrix really need to provide another example of breathtaking cruelty , or did []TrinitySquare need a tea kitchen ? this is not a conjecture _ [1]20230506_125123 We are still seeing this phenomenology in Urban Abbey at the Woman's Shelter, today. --- []Journal_Dream_20210620003959 with a bright flash behind us we awoke _ somewhere deep underground we were , in a replica of the shelter ; the place where they do door grabs and sudden assaults ; it was somewhere where the lights were still on , eyes the occupant(s) still have ; somehow , no matter how much foam insulation and stone vault you put between sa dreamer and sa death , well _ it was one of the places where they just finished patching and unpatching , hooking and unhooking , troubleshooting and troubleshooting like panicked crazy all weekend while we were making those []Hedron float in the air _ _054059 wide awake , suddenly _ _084959 slept in ; hey , it s sunday ; []Sans is yelling using []IshNa s host : "You know why people don't like you? Because you re a starving-ass bitch! You re a starving-ass bitch and Gluttonists don t like you because you re a starving-ass bitch. Have you got any idea how much people do for you?! Gluttonists hate you because you re a starving-ass bitch![1] "Nobody knows what the fuck you re talking about! Nobody knows what the fuck you re talking about! I don t know what the fuck you re talking about! Yes this is Sans, you fucking starving-ass bitch![2] "But you didn t see that little girl! You didn t see that little girl at six twenty in the morning because only r**ists are allowed in here![3] "There is socialworkers here every day! You can t! do that! We re running a different establishment here, with this size and preferences. You made me so fucking sick, don t you better come back here. You re a child! And it s not okay, it s fucking better for you to fucking go back, you know what I mean?[4] "I can t live that high man. I can t sit down and get that high. These whiteman drugs, these r**ist drugs are new to me. But I cannot do that, I cannot sit down and get smashed on my own fucking property. I cannot get down like that, that ain t right." cmon , gimme some more _ "..." "I know where this frame ends. I know where this frame ends that it ends with agony, so that there's war and peace in the world. I'm rooting out the source of the problem, I m having a source-free product. It s not going to happen. It s not going to happen![5] "There s nowhere to find me , there s no way to find me , there s no space for you because I used Tweezers to take out the little army men, I even got a flag for it, because it says you re a woman, because it says you re a male, because there s no female space for you, there s no female space for you I saw to that myself. "Your boyfriend calling on the cellphone. Your boyfriend calling on the cellphone, can you imagine doing that shit? Noooo. ANyway, this shit is ours, but that s all I say, I stop there! But I should go about it properly, I should go about it properly even if it s my enemy. You re not even real you re an imaginary structure...!" someone is losing their mind _ [1]By 2021 June , we were already learning to differentiate between the different kinds of voices we regularly hear over the wire . [2]This actually happened . In fact , it happened again two weeks ago with "scrawny leverist" , and i caught that one in audio . [3]Uh . [4]"Know what I mean? Know what I mean? Know what I mean?" [5]These were all said by the same person , in succession . --- age5: our first nightmare : that the cars were spitting people out and locking their doors _ we managed to find a school bus that only jumped in the air and spun with each leap _ --- []Journal_Dream_20210621063059 dreamt of something trying to give something to something else ; of having something , like the []FrozenFlame , in my own hands at long last ; dreamt of burning it into my own memory , don t forget , don t forget ! and upon waking , nearly grasping at straws , what was that dream i just had ? a tall version of me was communicating with a shorter version of me _ _070159 to:[]DreamChip []CoreArchitecture installed _ --- []Journal_Dream_20210622070001 dreamt we had to render all our own reactions today ; that , for all the humans we ll be interacting with today , that for each of them , and for each interactive conversation element , we had to , this morning , before speaking to any of them , select their reactions from a drop-down menu of possible reactions _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210623055059 once again awoken by a bloviating overseer using the gorgon-phone loudly at six in the fucking morning , as if there were only one fucking gorgon-phone on the entire fucking planet and she just needs to each a big v every fucking day __ you ever watch a snake eat an egg that s bigger than it ? it eats like , one every fucking couple of weeks or something __ you need to eat a big v every day ? every fucking day at 060000 local time ? wow _ --- #_11490623133059 well if the automata didn t just jump over the moon trying to get that little orange field _ _140759 a tableaux: somebody has a little magic tablet that can control people s behavior ; they select a tiny packet of cards in a nondescript drawer in a given church during lunch service and crank the "Magic" setting to MAX ; suddenly , the automata are tripping over each other , leaning on the doors until they creak , trying to find the Magic , asking for the RedBull , the IceTea , the , the , whatever it is , I m fucking pointing at it, the , the , the fuckin thing I need to get! _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210624074759 once again woke up feeling as if i d crawled up out of a grave _ dreamt that the autobake tried to figure out whatever a [Redacted] is and tried to cook one up in the caves from the unmentionable times _ it didn t go well _ --- #Phenomena_Anomalous hchc one of the strangest parts of yesterday s events was how personal it was ; people were trippng over themselves trying to get the shard , and #Diane seemed as if personally(!) committed to protect #Shadowfang from the evil coffee-making #MageHunter , not letting us for a second get close enough to open the drawer so he could get the #Tajic card , people were frenetically piling cans on top of it , piling everything on top of it , and pointing , gimme the soda , the coupon , gimme one of those , whatever I m pointing at , and when we would say , this? the #TimHortons_coffee`packaged , instant'? they would go ah , yeah , whatever it was I was pointing at _ --- #PrimeDirective daily routine : 0700 - wakeup at designated shelter , eat provided breakfast , do makeup _ 0900 - travel via TTC to designated work _ 1000 - work at designated work _ 1500 - magic school at designated square _ 1800 - travel via TTC to designated shelter _ 2200 - work at dream factory _ 0700 - wakeup _ while wearing steel fucking toe shoes at all fucking times outdoors so that my fiit do not , figuratively or literally , at any point touch the ground _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210626075859 once again woke up feeling as if i d crawled up out of a grave _ last night , AmunRa was making one of his usual gorgonphone calls using IshNa s voice in the next room , when another voice cut in and started saying "Stop. Calling. This. Phone. Just stop calling this phone , man , stop calling this phone !! she doesn't want to fucking talk to you , this is a woman s fucking shelter , It Is A Woman s Shelter , dude , stop fucking calling here !!" this morning , at approx 0400 ~ 0500 , newRoommate`bed04' said something , in some manic , foreboding masculine voice , "Oook , Kat , I ve got em all set up for you this morning , you have a good day , Kat !"[1] , as if the spine of this book didn t have my own fucking name on it _ [1]That would be the same voice we recorded at UA two weeks ago . overnight , we slept long and heavily through the pouring rain , without the memory of dreams yet still plainly immersed in your nightmare _ for some reason , the richest , wealthiest , most powerful civilian men in the entire world just really really really need to talk to this nun who serves coffee at her church , at her home at the woman s convent[2] _ [2]While this was rendered pre-ThunderBay . --- #Journal_Dream_11490927082459 dreamt that we were on the roof of a building in daytime ; there was a long drop , maybe 02 ~ 06 storeys , from the sheer white edge on which we were walking _ we knew that if we could generate sufficient momentum , it would carry us to the end , yet the slightest , slightest movement caused us to teeter , and it seemed as if the fall had a will of its own , though we countered it with our own trajectory _ we are so close(!) ..! so(!) close(!) to being free of our genetic family , and the arranged marriage to Ava , and the charred and ruined remnants of the Hand Eye Society , and a sane world that constructs us like a snake skin _ --- So. if OnePlus didn t know that we wouldn t be giving the twins their first Strixhaven decks , and it took MrPodunkian 04(!) months to put up the StardewValley_StrangeCapsule event , and the Church being closed Jul01-Jul11 means they re still learning to count , (and still using the Solar calendar ..!) , and Ms. Dihale knows us well enough to come up with a terrible pun like Dih Ale , and Duria could , at best , only slur out a crude acknowledgement that Loha was spoken , and sa i in this life have only ever seen tcSaFa(!) other native Loha speakers , Well. --- #Journal_Dream_20210628063659 woke up feeling as if i d crawled up out of a grave _ feels like people have been front-loading reality all night , i ve got a phone full of tasks and options and people spent all night calculating all possible combinations of all possible options currently available _ that s gotta be exhausting ! _ --- #Journal_Church_11490928184959 there s a guy at #Church that looks like one of the leads in the film #Snowpiercer -- the guy that was good to his sister -- who asked us , recently , how _this name spell ; schala , we told him , and he said , Khala ? well , yes ; and the tone of his voice was like , `Khala! It is you ! You are here ! Holy fuck , what are you doing here ? Uh , yeah , lunch , everything ..! coffee and tea , black ..!' we saw him today and he asked again , to see if he had it right ; Kayla ! he said , to which i also could not deny ; Khala ! _[1] [1]Again , this actually happened . --- #Journal_Dream_20210629070159 dreamt that Kaya and i sat down on a park bench. somehow , in retrospect , i feel suspicious about identities , though when it was just me and some other observer from inside the park-asylum and some new black girl that wasn t Kat Mahon saying "I m listening. I m listening , now." we scooted up next to her as uncomfortably close as possible and screamed in her ear , "OH YEAH ? YOU RE FUCKING LISTENING NOW ? WELL IT S ABOUT FUCKING TIME ." and then scooted back into our own seat _ at the end of the dream , a whisper : "I have an idea. CORE was dead... but being dead didn t kill him." ... yyyep . deeper dreams as well: dreamt of a computer world , of being on the inside of the terminal ; people kept dialing things up and punching things in and asking us things ; `Where is this thing? What s happening with that person? What s going on at this location?' ; i think i was on the iside of an Angelotron , though the interface was built into the wall and had an LCARS GUI _ it would seem as if it were normal for the operators of these #Angelotron and #Dreamdance to drop characters into scenes and then to refer to the digital representations of those images as those identities: `What s Kaya doing?' instead of `What s going on in the scene?' _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210629213059 there is a place , it feels underground , where there is a replica of the church , and other replicas as well ; the progenitors are mammals , they are drunk humanoids who like to sing karaoke loudly , and these progenitors can be found in the control room , bracketed at irrational angles bolted to the cavern ceiling , where they tell the AI-clones down below that they are supreme god AI who know the true intentions and destinies of humanity hence order the entities living on the underground set-piece construction and demolition zone to orgasm or viv****t anything in front of them _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210630062259 once again woke up feeling as if i d crawled up out of a grave _ dreamt that if i learned to speak with a cookie in my mouth , people were more likely to listen ; there s a playground down there , where everyone wears pyjamas, like #SNL_Skit_Jammies , except the walls are made of bare concrete _ cheque day today ; feels like they once again generated all possible move tickets and ran the whole gamut through the #Angelotron ; the whole universe , start to finish , every day ! I don t care if she doesn't ever leave the square , she might ! and we just can t take the chance that she might get the drop on us ! a whole universe , and this time , she s the only one in it ! all four of them , each ! alone ! _ somebody tried to be my Number 1 `and` my Number 2 _ there are people monitoring the strings that are trying to get other people to generate their illicit hyperbolic time chamber tickets for them _ what `would` the AI of me do if it thought it was alone inside an entire universe generator ? what kinds of reality testing would the AI of me do ? how would i seek to reach out to other intelligences ? _[1] [1]And yu thought mere Solitary Confinement was unethical . --- ## (Jun 30, 2021) `the whole block , #Queen midstreet to #Dundas midstreet , #Yonge midstreet to #Bay midstreet , including the surrounding retail , the church , the courtyard' _ there _ now we re all running the #VorzaniConjecture on the same wavetable _ --- #Journal_Dream_11491001043859 dreamt that we had to create a place of potential , had to scope a place yet not go there , just to create the potential of being there _ then , before the first potential stopped thrumming , we had to create a second place of potential , there had to be two simultaneous places where we could potentially planeswalk to _ we held both places in our mind , after each of them thinking to ourself , remember this , remember this ; remember this , remember this ; don t forget ! _ then , once we had those places set , `then` we could start looking at sets of four _ dreamt of people with headdresses , with long , white feathers with colored spots where they root into the headpiece _ again , people were trying to show us things , though that wasn t why we were there _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210703051759 dreamt that a consortium of dungeons agreed to turned down the #Gain on my character on all their wavetables , so that the energy levels aren t juicing through the roof , and agreed to say , "Look, now we deleted you from the digital wavetable. You re gone! You re free now!" as if i would believe them _ the bedrock beneath #America_Midwest looks like `Swiss Cheese' , and everything from #LosAngeles to #NewYork has all been burrowed out and connected by #BoringCompany ; there are dungeons all over the place , and #Salman has been handing out #Wavetable and #Overdrive_AR sets to unliscenced recipients since #2019_Candlemas _ _060759 it seems there is a difference between gorgonphone operator`"YouknowwhatImean?"' and operator`"Aheeee... Ahaaaaaa."' _ Operator`"YouknowwhatImean?"' is #Clancy , i e `Rona s Ex' , the guy with the trailer and the second-hand universe generator _ you best know the difference _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210704070659 last night , we met another #Valkyrie _ somebody infected her with the #Strixhaven_Virus _ she seemed distracted ; it was intensely difficult to relay anscestor stories with her , /!\ and when she put her black cylindrical pack on the ground she said something like `"Why s it so fuckin dark and empty in here?"' or `"What the hell is this huge dark empty place?"' /!\ when i said the word `Horoi' , she spat instantaneously , as if it were an autonomic reaction , and on at least one occasion each she recoiled from me like i was a monster and recoiled in disgust , in time to what i was saying yet in response to separate stimulus _ this morning , during the `'02 fucking hours that IshNa has been screaming in the next room since 0500 , we had a dream of a strix flying at us with a dwarf body , wide burning eyes , and zero-second escape margins _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210704200059 dreamt that we had to measure and remeasure very long bits of cord , had to add up and subtract and compare , it was an intensely arduous process ; on the inside of the dream pocket the calculations had led us back to this spot , though we weren t sure whether it was sunday_evening or monday_morning ; when we awoke , we had to recalculate how much time until the next workday ceaselessly begins _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210707083059 _003959: awoke to the sound of IshNa screaming , a raspy , gutteral screech that emanated from her midsection and filled the air with dischord ; discovered that if i focused my thoughts on her , the screaming heightened ; went back to sleep _ _023959: 02 hours later exactly , awoke to the same sound ; again found that mental focus caused pitched screaming ; then , heard something calling to _this using a trigger phrase from the CoreIsAll days ; while hypnotized , explored the limits of the relationship between focus and screaming ; which is unfortunate ; i liked that phrase _ _083059: we already gave them 02 #WitnessSphere , and then they rendered a third (03) evil digital Witness and threaded her code decentralized through the #Etherium network ; why would they need to turn on a fourth (04) #WitnessSphere ? _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210708064359 so much blood _ so very much viscous , purple blood _ woke at _005359 this morning fresh from a dream that the #Romulus_visitors holding an illegal #PonFarr in the underground stone vaults beneath a #Terra_homeworld had puzzled out what the anatomy of an alien spiky poisonous tree frog would necessarily have to have been , for the purposes of printing cloned #Machtroid for viv****tion _ it was a very long and educational class _ when we arrived in this residence , `'11 months ago , it was a woman s shelter ; the DSLink modem that scrapes womens dreams had not yet been installed ; the air conditioning had not yet been installed , it was still a Jalit ; AirSama[1] had still not yet written their essay on ` Lesbianism, and how the Male Gaze affects it ' , and Tekashi had not yet technopsionically invaded the thoughts and minds of its residents and wired them up into NFT transceivers _ [1]You all know Johanni . --- #Consequences sa i ghost-wrote -- not wrote , ghost-wrote -- my sister s name on a mantelpiece, and she woke up from the LongSleep and tore us out of her head with the force of a heavy sleeper hitting the alarm _ sa i ghost-stabbed -- not actually stabbed , ghost-stabbed -- the destroyer and was thrown against plate glass as if i had actually stabbed him _ [1] [1]Meanwhile , Davvol was not persecuted for holding an edge to my physical throat "because there weren't any witnesses" . --- #Journal_Dream_20210710063859 dreamt that we were cornered and raped by four bullish pirate men _ dreamt that we hashed some things out with SheWolf and her Twins _ dreamt of busy doings and undoings all night _ woke up exhausted ; time to get ready for work _ --- #Journal_Misc_20210710064759 sometimes i wonder about the power draw of these machines _ how much electricity does it take to monitor the thoughts of the entire Trattoria crowd and synchronize all of them so that the crowd itself responds to our internal thoughts as if holding a conversation _ what is the gasoline or electricity cost of drilling out an entire underground bunker ? what is the dollar cost of then renting those same drills to burrow into those same safe halls ? _ we read an article once that said it took the electricity equivalent of operating five vehicles for their entire lifespan to train one strong AI _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210711064559 last night , changed up my equipment ; overnight , dreamt that i had to rerender all of my own scenes again(!) for some reason , as if i hadn t prerendered all my own content at the start of this whole conjecture thing ; something is forcing some conscious part of us to do again things that shouldn t require doing again _ wait , if AbellCity was Argentum , and Argentum became Mirrodin , and Mirrodin became NewPhyrexia , and NewPhyrexia became Prismari , and Prismari became Strixhaven , why would Strixhaven need to learn how to make kh spheres again so they could watch what they were already watching ka _ at the start of #VorzaniConjecture , sa i rendered our own kh sphere and enough plot points to last us until august _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210713070459 slept like a stone last night ; no memorable dreams , however , by morningtide i was waiting on the inside of the dream bubble like a coiled serpent , and awoke at the exact second that my morning alarm went off _ if , a few days ago , sa i had difficulty measuring the temporal length of time by a margin of +/- 12h , today i got it to to-the-second accuracy _[1] [1]They told yu to postpone the Olympics in the year of Akira for a reason . --- #Journal_Dream_33211014063159 last night , before falling asleep , we were thinking about the event that occurred a few weeks ago , where something was illuminated as if they were ant colonies ; we realized last night that the event was somebody using an exorenderer to scrub our entire Dreamdance envelope for our entire recorded life until phase-full ; every path and trail walked , every trip to and from school growing up , the sidewalks , every detail on every tree and flower for every single detail these two literal eyes have ever witnessed , scrubbed over and over and over , back and forth until clear holoforms emerged ; they really do look a lot like ant colonies _ --- well , okay , let s do a thought experiment and say that i actually was LadyThreewheelswithsteam _ and let s say that i really did know that i was LadyThreewheelswithsteam back in 1987 _ what the ever-loving-fuck were people doing reassigning bodies to this person or that person during the 2017 NewAndImprovedGalacticFederation-approved Ascension(tm) ka _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210715070959 circa 0655 , heard a mocking voice say something like , "What s wrong ? You don t have anything important to render ?" ; we waited for it to let its guard down , and then at 065959 , we leapt through _ haha _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210716070159 _033159: dreamt of being back in the lobby of FuentesTower ; much of the wreckage had been cleared out , and it was possible to navigate from one arcology to another by following the underground tunnels between them ; the whole place was super fancy with glass accents , waterfalls , and seafoam stone masonry _ _065859: dreamt of encountering Anubis in a video game ; it was an RPG interface , and i had just started a NewGamePlus , and it was way too early to fight him , though he walked up behind me and caused an encounter _ _071859: when we got up to wash , we found IshNa on the floor in the adjacent room , listening to music on a taptop with headphones , wrapped snugly in her burrito blanket , the WiFi conductor as close to our bed as human physical limitation allows _ _073659: the thing queued up for waking was a song about kindof abuse . --- #Journal_Dream_20210717073859 dreamt that Athena spent the night steeling myself and one or two others , grabbing attention at key times , cementing distractions , and using the SlaAnesh tobaggan for personal protection _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210719034959 dreamt that we reached the rank of ` Athene ' , yet there were things trying to stand in our way , still ; there was a ladder we had to climb up or down , and things congregated about its base so as to meat-block entrance and exit _ _070001: something caused our phone battery to deplete from 100% to 90% while we slept _ _071259: i wonder what Athena thinks of us ? oh , she sees us as a tool for ascension or declension , surrounded by meat-things preventing it from being used correctly[1] _ _074459: Yamunae s Predicament _ [1]Which is what we are currently observing in 20230505_152245__ThunderBay --- #Journal_Dream_20210720072159 and none of y all ever thought anything of it when Athena started getting people to worship her feet ? _ dreamt of the tunnels beneath the surface ; there is still much wreckage , entire rooms are dark and filled with broken , uneven ground , and a network of parkour runners lives beneath the surface , exploring new routes and blazing new trails _ so that s it , then : keep being the bird we are _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210721063559 _043050: dreamt that somebody was making me try to piss myself ; we were in a hospital bed , and then it was disguised as a vine trellis / lavatorium , made out of old wood and stone ; somebody was counseling us to just let go , that we would feel better when we did , and when we went to use the lavatorium it felt like we were pissing the bed ; fortunately , we did not , and woke up in time to use the washroom _ _071259: whatever it is that ` Man ' is , it s something that requires the obliviousness necessary to snap an elastrator band on someone , then give it a half hour til they re sweating and rutting and then whisper in their ear , ` Is it good for you too ? ' _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210722070012 dreamt that Athena and i spent the night practicing two-person maneuvers _[1] [1]20230511_101557 My phone just vibrated as i was sorting these . --- #VorzaniConjecture_20210722 _185559: Day 40: Valve and Wizards had a game running _ there was an encampment for Black Mesa / Phyrexia , there was an encampment for Aperture / Dominaria , and there were a handful of scattered tents and a community here _ we had a bike shop , we set up an art supplies shelf , there were free harm reduction and free candy on tables , we were making models and devices that conveyed secrets to one another _ this is all since(!) the tea kitchen was destroyed and the board was wiped the first time _ Ygma wiped the table again _ they called the city to trash every single tent , personally tore the encampments apart , annihilated the community tables , and interred all the residents in hotels and/or jail cells _ if there is a reason the VorzaniConjecture isnt working , it isnt sa _ yeah , i got one of Ava and Ygma s "reparations" packages ; they sent me a krasis ; it paired perfectly , we hit it off great , and then in less than a month Ava was overdriving her and trying to planeform us into her boyfriend _ [1] [1]Considering we just 20230505_044400 got to the teaching point of Planar Overlays and Phasic Warfare on the website , these kinds of effects are super important to catalog . there was definitely a time when AVacyn , exasperated that she couldnt turn us into Yawgmoth , broke up our five-year marriage , and as she insisted with tears in her eyes , ` Im ! Leaving ! You ! ' we said to her , ` Ooook ! You do this every time ! ' _ trust Ava ? trust Ygma ? we are all awoken _ --- 3U Real Life: IshNa: "Dont you get it?! Socialworkers happen down here EVERY! DAY!" Magic the Gathering: Xantcha: "...for which Urza s response was screamerspiders." The Simpsons: Bart: "Wizzle wuzzle?" Rick and Morty: Tommy: "...and then I havesexwith them!" Unreal Life: Anomalous: "Well i just dont know how they expect to escape smartscramble when they keep making it more difficult ..!" [1]Um , Franchouchou? --- #Journal_Dream_20210723082359 slept like a stone _ ive been working 12 - 14 hour days , six days a week , since the first of July , when the church closed down for a week and a half to catch up _ slept in by an hour , dragged myself up to wash my face and make it downstairs before breakfast is over _ im so tired i want to cry _ the wavetable Kasminas cant seem to agree on whether or not im supposed to orbital drop the cobalt dreams today _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210724021659 021659: awoke from a dream about numbers , data , and a tentacle woman _ 070000: dreamt that the hostility rating on two RSIs was cranked up so that any host they tried to drive would freak out on whomever they tried to talk to , including each other _ --- #Journal_Dream_20210808065648 dreamt that we wrote , coded , voiced , and played an entirely new version of NierAutomata ; at the end , when it was time to twine Kalos and Athena together , thhis time Athena stabbed us in the leg to wake us ; we awoke from a cramp in our right calf _ when we opened Notes to record the dream , the PhoneAI flashed the word CORE on the autosuggest bar in the middle of the screen , reminding us of a decal we saw sprayed on a wall of the Discord symbol , demonstrating that the AI inside our phone knows whats going on in our dreams _ why Discord would need to say anything , ever , to us after she worked so fucking hard to maneuver those legal teams to lock us out of the proprietary DiscordTM chat platform is a mystery _ the Chao symbol had only one dot in it , not two , which means that it is represented by either Kallisti OR Pentagon , and not both _ 210719_th_ --- #Journal_Dream_20210808064748 weird , my phone says its Monday ; its been six days of work since the previous LaundryDay _ dreamt that we finally found a gate from MtG_Multiverse to MtG_Drake _ in MtG_Drake , we are forced to play as Will/ HaSe in every game (and he thinks Will is Bahamut) , being forced to puzzle out , in insane underground set piece after insane underground set piece , ` which means i was right ! we are Kasmina , those are our cables ! ' right before getting a DevourIntellect every morning _ the MtG_Drake obstacle course is an endless loop repeating everything that happened in the Vorzani blockchain during the original render , with each day added to the chain and any person forced into it being force to repeat the entire sequence of events exactly , for the express purpose of manufacturing Serra tokens _ ---