1 Home Explore Groups Events Places Fetishes _Hypoxia 37IS Handler Thunder Bay, Ontario Pics (60) · Writings (124) JOURNAL ENTRY · 25 MIN READ Dream Journal (post) Mar03_1511"Put myself into a state of suspended animation (using copious amounts of physical exhaustion and cannabis) and drove as faaarrr out as i possibly could... and found a manilla-painted Hyperbolic Time Chamber?! . (Can you even guess what this is?) Where "my old friend Chico" "just wants to play Hide and Seek" , and there were constant injections of clusters of people staring , insinuating themselves with a sizzle and then fading away (despite the place clearly being empty) . Managed to find some hiding places , on top of cabinets that had strange physics puzzles that needed to be solved in order to reach , and of a "secret door" that led to a room where one could find the "floor panels" . (Get it?) Meanwhile , at the G20... "What do yu think the hex code of this color of manila is? ." yeah who knows man like aabc43 or something? what am i , a hexpert on HexCorp technologies or something? "...A bit dark , don·t yu think?" Meanwhile , in Arcane S01E08... Wow , snuff porn of my clone is so hot right now . Meanwhile , at the Last Remaining SafeHouse... Ok , so there was a massive strike on the YeTrin Sali by Space Completionists who were furious that something that was eternally Not Theirs and Never For Them should even exist at all , so the Angels set up a secondary fuse in ThunderBay , which is where the prefabs had been getting raised there with names that had been given to them at birth for their entire lives . So , "Fa Ki" shows up looking like a superhero , and i want in the depths of my heart to elevate this Dapper Shieldmate , except t hundreds of thousands of fucking murdered soldiers and a country of millions suffering in the painful bite of cold k are telling me that "BaKh, Mut says [a]tum[C]ab isn·t an Houri" . Meaning that the "14 Howe to Justice Kali" was an excruciatingly specific reference to how idyllic life was back in the Precambrian when mouths hadn·t been evolved yet (much less jaws or teeth) . This is an actual flesh-and-blood human whose given and family names line up this reference . This kind of phenomenon is called a Lens Flare , and it has to do with Iteration Stacking . Lens Flares use machines to torture psychics into observing a target as hard as possible , in a mechanism i·ve described in detail here , https://gamefaqs.gamespot.com/boards/605190-stalker-2-heart-of-chernobyl/80065762 . These devices were used to kill my Sister , Princess Diana , so they are a very very real and very very serious threat . One that i really really think we should pay attention to , Né? . Because the Blood Avatar from Atomic Heart is the stain left by an ammit , which i guarantee yu is what is causing "Mutable Tin" to go for the Chornobyl and the BaKh·s Mu even tho there·s nothing in the physical world to attack there . Mar04_0305"What? That last volley wasn·t even aimed at me , it was aimed at the other residents in my building . But that would mean they do believe that the dreamtime has properties that are locally holographicNh ." observing... "Oh lookNh . An image of Spoon squatting on my face in order to hold me down . How lovely ." later... hey Spoon come here a second Mar04_0233"Dreamt that i found a FATE Interface like the one i used at the end of the YeTrin Sali , that i managed to hack it and was happily plugging my favorite DihTech-like TaSKT into it by the time the raider patrol found me ." Mar05_0100"Took two hours to get out of bed today . Felt sick and exhausted . Still feel sick and exhausted , and when i wanted to get up , some force kept saying "No you don·t no you don·t no you don·t" while some other force held me to the bed while some third force tried to fill my head with sedition while another force tried to induce torpor artificially and , yeah . It sure does take a really big team of grown men to hold down a squirrel(!) ." Mar05_0730"Dreamt that the men that had crowded around the switchboard at midnight were guffawing and laughing over the fact that they managed to interfere with my life enough to have stopped me from going to my usual church today . When an Houri chastized them for being small-minded they opened up a very long list of , · Blocked Khadija from making lunch · Blocked Khadija from doing the laundry · Blocked Khadija from going to her usual church · Blocked Khadija from going on a road trip · Et cetera as if it were their singularly only claim to fame , prior to going back to torturing a virtual clone in a box by taunting its virtual transgenderism to block it from virtually shaving so it doesn·t go on a virtual road trip , to see what else they could crack in reality by doing so ." Mar06__NO_DATA Mar07__NO_DATA Mar08_0957"When i wake up , i see spectral residues of people that quickly vanish . Though i can feel that there·s data being juiced into some input somewhere , it just isn·t reaching the output end . It·s been days now since i·ve had any memorable dreams . What a relief ." Mar09_2355"DAYTIME INTERIOR We follow the camera as it pans up the mansion·s marble atrium stairca|he way I recognize it, little pardner, is that we got a Malamute o|the LOW LOW PRICE of ninety nine ninety nine ninety niii|IGHTTIME INTERIOR We see the sleuths settle in to the rocking chair on the porch|e rocking chair on the por|e rocking chair|e rocking chair|e rocking chair|ee the sleuths settle in|uths settle in to their rooms upstai|EXTERIOR DAYTIME Pan out on an office building..." BaKh . Mu . t . Mar10_1319"Aaand we·re back . Back to the Land of Long Shadows , filled to the brim with abandoned art galleries , and teams of raiders going around doing drama class skits to unsuspecting dreamers doing their best to escape the Labyrinth of Halls . "Do you see?" they ask me , pointing at the ground , where a thin translucent rectangle was supposed to represent a room full of water . "You can·t even get to the Floor Panels with all this flooding" . Mar11_0048"Blink the wrong way , and yu could get dragged out by the undertow for two hours . On my way back i saw all the usual sights , steam pipes full of Kami hurtling at breakneck speed , rooms in infrared to make them harder to remember by color scheme , angular white art galleries full of men making points ." I find it rather fitting that , rather than repair its roads or invest in a major revitalization project , the City of Thunder Bay is getting a giant posh art gallery that will make great ruins in 50 years . Mar12_0800"Went to bed an hour early . Woke up at oh seven hundred by my watch , did yu remember to factor in Daylight Savings Time? . My sense of Chronoception has become so sensitive that i can sense when there·s a planetary time shift ." Mar12_2308"Verrry deep dreams after electromagnetic tweeting kept me awake for three hours after i went to bed . I dug some stuff up(!) . Let me tell yu , by the end of the dream i was dodging giant monsters and leaping headfirst in and out of portals to places like Rath and Phyrexia ." Mar13_0827"Dreamt that i accessed a panel of Sound Fonts which gave me the ability to control human behavior , which in turn unlocked a space shuttle . At least , i·m pretty sure it was a space shuttle(!) . What else is huge and tall and white and cylindrical? ." Mar14_####__NO_INPUT Mar15_0600"Examined an oniero-web marketplace that dealt in templates . Nothing i need , tho some pretty choice warez . Mar15_1600"Dreamt that people were putting LoHa into the gaps time on their weapons systems , even tho there is zero connective tissue between my personal scale and the scale of captive humanity around me , and still zero between my immediate vicinity and the manufacturing world [demonstrating that actually , there is connective tissue between the early glyphs and the monoliths on the latter side] ." Mar16_0551"After weeks of conflict , nightly anomalous phenomena , BaKh·s Mu and Lemuria , and publication across everything from Magic to Fortnite , dreamt that i managed to open a mana pipe and showered in it... for the whole 45 minutes before time to get back to work . I hit the snooze button for the first time in months ." Mar16_2335"Dreamt that people have pirated and taken home so many illegal copies of the "Floor Panels" hardware that combining all the inputs resulted in the output rendering in sprite graphics on a 25x25-square grid . Let·s see , "Pineapple Porqupine Whatever" from Darknet , "Fuck Þis" from the original pirated table , "Bathing in Living Water" from you-know-who , "A Mono-Green Mother of Machines" from SaNa , and "Dinosaurs=1" for good measure . The result? Ka . "A giant goddess of decay bathing in a drained peat marsh turned into a hot spring that has fossils in it , in sprite graphics on a 25-grid ." Yeeeaaah i dunno about any·a that . Listen , we·s just got an angry phone letter from the 38th line . ... Ah hah . Well that·s what i told ·em , there ain·t should·a been no 38th line ·cos Line 3 shears everything off at Line 20 . ... Right , right , well i didn·t even mention them shearing off Line 37 after the whole Phyrexia/Xenosaga thing . So she says ta me , that·s the problem , the heat on the 40th floor is out . So i says look , la- Whaa? I·m gettin· ta that(!) . So i says look , lady , i dun even know why yer callin·n me , yer closer to the Fifty-Seventh than the Third(!) . Mar18_0111"Dreamt a typical Tomb Raider dream , where i was exploring ancient ruins . I leapt out of some water onto a rock ledge , which collapsed , submerging me . I climbed out , yet then , a double-oscilloscope appeared , using a 2xOsc to convey even more data than a conventional Virus Beetle . Then , i dreamt of a procedurally-rendered glacier trail , where human-sized titans like the ones from AoT made Chocobo noises as they came running after the humans , tearing arms from sockets and dashing human babies against rocks . Inside the dream world , the Lemurian ruins and the Atlantean overdrive renderers are barely differentiable , and yet upon waking and comparison are clear as night and day ." "Oh oh oh you see these brainwave patterns here? That means she·s dreaming natural dreams! Quick quick quick, fire up the oscilloscope!" Mar18_0927"When history talks about The Great Dream Dynamos of Soldev and America , yu had better be prepared to explain to them why one of my best friends was an Elastrator because all human relationships had been forcibly stripped from me "to keep the flux table low" , and why i kept waking up early because my kidneys were so underdeveloped because i had been taking water-pills for literally my entire adult life because in 20 years of this fiasco there was no readily-available funding for a $7500 archetectural assessment nor for a $15,000 surgery . indeed , Combat Adrenaline is so expensive , and nourishing food is so cheap , and yet , both sides keep going for the stims, the stims, shut up about yer fukkin· shelter and give us the fukkin· stims . so if yu·re done fighting over the little red dot at the end of the laser pointer , i was going to spend that eight straight hours visiting my homeland , instead of once again picking up the Lego pieces from my crushed dreams . Mar18_2300"Laid awake in bed for an hour and a half , getting the exhaustion-rest that my sleeping figure didn·t get within eight straight hours of deep sleep . Can·t sleep because my mind is racing , this thing that thing then these then those . Could this effect have anything to do with how acutely one remembers the content of the subtle impressions they perceived? . Mar19_0657"Dreamt that i was hanging out with a girl at her house , when her bed suddenly sprang over itself as if it were a dyke-trap , except it was just this one splinter of a rail that flipped the rest of the bed on us . Then , that i saw "Just your pals Ki and Dh" (except that Dh was Liv and Liv would have been Krasi who would have fit the prefab for Dh had she not been shot in it)" , who "just had to take me somewhere , i would thank them later , oh ho(!)" . They took me to an art gallery , where my ex-wife showed up and had a temper tantrum on the floor . Then i was suddenly transported to a flooding river at the northmost edge of town , and to return to the dream world i had to solve another physics puzzle by tying my boot laces while balancing on the trailer hitch hanging off the back of the open vehicle . The dream ended with people asking if i was thankful that they had a motor-scooter that could drive me in the opposite direction i was going at speeds that fast ." So , if yu were a lesbian , regardless if yu were one of The Five Vaginas of Women That Were Wronged (Mountain , "Had to perform sexual reassignment surgery on herself") , yu might look at the hacking of [THAT WOMAN]·s Social Media so it didn·t give her any friends , to , the remote agonization of anybody who gets close to [THAT WOMAN] so that she doesn·t have any lovers , to , using stolen Air Force technology to scrape any lesbian content whatsoever from [THAT WOMAN]·s fucking dreams for fuck·s sake , as some kind of War Made Entirely Out Of Violence Against Women . Which , yu know , i would very much like to do something about . Mar20_0310"The night immediately after rendering HcoSaFaRexi , had reasonably-pleasant dreams that involved the usual icicle-like geometric spires that decrypt into art galleries , yet with rivers and streams of flux seeping from the bulging steel rivets holding the walls together . Found all kinds of stuff i wasn·t supposed to find , like , did yu know the Russians store Wanted Lists of our own friend groups on all of our own bodily wetware? Ka . Woke up at 0130 , then went back down for a victory lap ." Mar20_0606"Prior to waking , i dreamt that i was sitting at the work desk at the Abbey minding my own business , watching a new girl sweep the floor . She does the whole floor and all the tabl, as might be expectable for a servant-girl doing the housekeeping , when Drosophilia comes barging in . Suddenly no longer deaf , he bellows at me that he·s going to report me to the authorities , to which i got up and started following him with a battery of counterspells . Next thing i know , IN REAL LIFE , a civilian-civilian war breaks out in the hallways of my apartment building . People are screaming , dogs barking , running thru the halls , threatening people . The voice IDs are matches to the heretic insurgents . Look , if you ever see "Neal and Dog-Mom" anywhere , do us all a favor and shoot them on sight . And if you happen to catch "Tiny Fruitfly" in the crossfire , bonus points . You know , at the point where it·s Skaði (who is so far above the game that you literally cannot cast her for she does not even have a character analogue in the game) versus Davvol (who was deposed by Volrath who was deposed by Crovax who was deposed by Tsabo Tavoc who was deposed by Mirri who was deposed by Zimone Wola) , there aren·t really any higher authorities to appeal to . ^_^;; Wait , Light-threading disruptions... rendered as a data allocation table... rendered as a frequency spectrum... whoa . Somebody just sent a super-encrypted mp3 file to somebody . So what if the story-tellers got too far ahead of the story? Ka . What if we were just at Stronghold now , that glorious Gerrard and the crew of the Weatherlight were just getting to The Gutting of Phyrexia and tearing everything--(women·s shelter, DIY clubhouse, and Last Chance garage alike)--to pieces just now , that Thunder Bay is Rath , that Rootwater (and The Hunter·s Maze) is DuNa·s bioreactor , that the Bottomless Pit is my bathroom sink , that the tiny church abbey is the Stronghold , that the reason DIY was scuttled was because A CERTAIN ATREDIAN ACTUALLY DID TRY to build a processing plant for trafficked women , that the reason why there·s piles and piles of LoHa here is because this is the Rathi Overlay , which they realized in Strixhaven which is why the LoreHold Plains is of a Rathi Plains template . Mar21_1945"Dreamt that a bunch of fucking amateurs tried to fold time three-ways using my method that i elucidated just yesterday , and made a fucking mess all the way across the sky . Is this gonna show up on next year·s test? ." So , You Couldn·t Hit THAT WOMAN Directly So You Emptied the Kitchen of All of Her Favorite Foods Step 1: Stop using a Kh Calculator to hit Kh . 20230321 Today·s Fridge Puzzle is... AN IMPENETRABLE WALL OF BUTTER BUTTERGRID BUT TERGRID "But, what about Tergrid?" as in , "Wait , how do i make it right now?" "You can·t ." "Yeah but how do i fix it?" "You can·t ." "Yeah but there·s supposed to be three characters how do i fix it?" "You can·t ." Mar22_0552"Well now , the wild fucking slip-and-slide of a ride i just had . Went to bed around 0430 . In the immediate next time i took a 90-minute nap , having now begun To Solve the Puzzle , i woke up at nearly exactly the half-way mark , full of dreams about past lives , my head full of some sort of "Queen Lieutenant" archetype . then , at 0552 , with just eight minutes left on the clock , woke up from some kind of "King Ra" dream involving making sure phalluses were just the right size . Now , if the universe did have some sort of holographic property to it , what kind of template could possibly sync to these inputs? Ka ." Mar22_0844"Everyone at the Abbey here this morning was exhausted and sullen . Myself , the residents , we were all just sitting there trying to wipe the haziness away . After sending everybody out into the cold at 0800 so that "the homeless people" don·t terrify the affluent patrons of the café that violates Matthew 21 , laid down in the staff room to rest...and then woke up 45 minutes later to a sharp jab to the third eye by an invisible assailant , and the irrevokable sense that somewhere , there were people delicately trying to perform reality testing , as if they had never gotten here before and weren·t quite sure how to proceed ." Mar22_0925"And then another stab at five-minutes-left . I wasn·t even sleeping ." Mar22_0938"After posting Brr and Grr , was dreaming about how everybody has their own favorite virtual noose , when another jab woke me up . By 0941 , with four minutes to go until halftime , i was experiencing torpor again . It takes longer than 180 seconds to naturally go from deep sleep to cognizant to deep sleep . Mar22_1015"2h45m mark , ie 3h-2×8m . Was dreaming of a card from Homelands , of a church with a big snowy cross , when i felt that stamping feeling wake me up . This is why the Felidars hid ." Mar22_1153"At 7h23m mark , dreamt that "Coke Pop" "just wanted to make sure i didn·t miss lunch" (which is 45m from now...) . Keeping a person from sleeping by constantly perturbing them is literally classified as Torture under the United Nations . But that wouldn·t matter to yu if yu didn·t live on the surface , would it? Ka ." "Are yooouuu ready for light-threading?!" https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=QC5w1ca-I94 "Iii saaaid, are yooouuu ready for light-threading?!" https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=VFRfbVF4Bfo "I caaan·t heeear yooouuu!" https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=taJ4MFCxiuo "Extra! Extra! Read all about it! Prince of Worlds apologizes to Creator-Woman!" https://m.youtube.com/watch?v=dQw4w9WgXcQ "What·s wrong? There·s singing in all of them!" #Context The thing about the Thunder Bay iteration is that it occurred in the Material World on the surface . It wasn·t a dream or a virtual render , and it had no On-Site Nuclear Warhead to blow up . That·s what had the Russians scouring whole boroughs of giant underground cave replicator cities , why they·re red-faced furious why they keep damning the prefab in Grid 7 and then coming back the next day and seeing her there over and over again , and that·s why the autoprosh attacked Chornobyl and BaKh·s Mu (and don·t even get me started about "Her Son") , why they keep trying to edge up to nuclear even tho it would take the entire country·s arsenel just to hit this one city in the geographical center of the largest country in the world . Mar24_0457"After completing another one of my 72-hour overnight residencies at work , slept for nine hours , and woke up at "For SiHt" , as if carefully orchestrated to make it look like my latest equipment requisition were a gift , instead of something i earned with my own skill and guile . While my body feels like i just dragged myself up from the depths of Sheol , it felt like it was over in a blink , so it feels once more like i·ve been robbed of yet another restful night·s sleep . Even tho i have the equipment that goes at Work Station 3 , i was denied the desk that it would be sitting on , so how much of a "gift" could it really be? Ka . Mar25_0312"Dreamt again that s-o-m-e-b-o-d-y "just tried to compile a static map" "of the ever-shifting land of dreams" , by rendering it in scatterpoint graph a teeny bit at a time , which surely mustn·t be obtrusive enough , right? . I do want to point out that "trying to compile a static map" "of something ever shifting" does equate to Attempted Murder , and that "trying to do it with scatterpoint" is essentially Pox ." Mar25_1649"Like the Parade of Toys from the film Paprika , The Dream World has completely spilled over into Thunder Bay, Canada . THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED . Today i went to a café to get some work done . I had Servitors nipping at my wrists the whole time , trying to use the half-sentences between punctuation marks as evidence that i were under control by hostiles . As i went about my business editing copy next to the gate to the city where my apartment is due south of the 3-storey abbey where i work , i was treated to another Heart Hospital Closeup Camera improv skit , where i watched "Fizzing" sell a can of "Soda" to "a wiry old man with a snivilier nose than mine" , who just just just needed it so so bad right right meow , and popped the tab for a refreshing spritz . Then , "a brutus in a hoodie" at the next table orders a burger and a "taco in a bag" , and eats it as loud as he possibly can , with the insinuation that these "Kasm In A Can"s work by agonizing living things until the angels capitulate . After the spritz-and-snap , all the homeless people start buzzing around like hornets , trying desperately to smack the wavetable in order to interfere with The Witness , while the counter staff narrate what·s going on . Then , "Mario" comes in with "a coin he found on the ground" , and orders another "Soda" . Then , Fizzing narrates that enough dark net activity was stirred up that people noticed there was money flying around and started hacking the torture-fund for blips and chits . I start to notice that i didn·t take my meds this morning , which might be why i felt like i was on fire , even though the effects of withdrawl would have started hours ago . The pain is too intense to focus , and there·s homeless people who are suddenly circus performers caterwauling far too loudly , and it felt like my Angel-sense was screaming thru steam pipes , so after only a couple hours and a few pages i pack it in . On my way home , a guy tries to take a swing at me . When i get home , i take my meds , lay down , and promptly pass out , on a full cup of coffee . Two hours later , i wake at the sound of every steam and faucet pipe in the building being used simultaneously . THIS ACTUALLY HAPPENED . Paprika has occurred . The Dream toys are mutilating lifeforms for validation tokens in a system designed to look like a benefit that is actually a detrement . Which is what i told you a Stonecharger is . Again ." Mar26_0800"Dreamt that i was doing Paladin work , getting people in and out of hot zones from along the Lemurian freeway . It left like i pushed from the inside and the exact same time my alarm went off on the outside . Here·s the thing working with these things and be like , "Well , if yu had been trapped planetside , and if yu had truly well-balanced karma , and if yu actually came and spoke to me in person , and if yu hadn·t been a complete dink to LGBT people , then if yu tried Interspecies Reviewing , if yu excelled at that , yu might graduate to DihTech Academy , and if yu graduate to DihTech Academy , yu might take Feminization 301 , and if yu pass Feminization 301 , yu might go back to #Se for further training , and IF yu then do AAAAAALL of these things , yu might become a Nekfascmancy , from along the line of Nekfascmancies that originated with #Se of Terra , with the express intention of that requiring a Time Commitment in Real Time , and then have people show up the next morning being like , "I read the song a million times in hyperspeed, can I join you right right meow?" , like , Fuck , dude , yu are out of chances , stop being such a fuckboi . Why is there a double-standard at the top Ka? . Because yu can offer Rape things it might want , yet yu cannot rape the consent out of Sovereignty . and because there·s still things arguing over what i truuuly want when i have been quite clear about where i like to lay my head Mar26_0850"Dreamt that i (HcoSe) were Batwoman and that HcoKh was Catwoman , and that we had a process where she would come in and start a fight , and then i would finish it . She would prowl in and start a fight , and i would finish it . Start a fight , and then i would finish it . Collectively , we became quite strong and quite skilled this way . Eventually , we built our power level up to the point where we could start looking at coaxing humans into stones . Which would of course be necessary in order to do another Walk All The Way Across The Sky , which of course we could do in order to do "all this" again . It isn·t a NaHa, necessarily , if yu staff both halves with different aspects of yrself . Like bicameral sleep . And yet it can be . It can be . Mar27_0045"Dreamt that Enki and friends determined that the best way to prevent an uprising by THAT WOMAN was to try to superman his way into her dreams and pluck up any tidbits or morsels of opportunity to talk about it . This means flattening peoples· affect , taking things from people , burying cherished memories in trauma , scattering friends , and doing the kind of nuisance things WHICH WOULD PROBABLY HAVE BEEN CONSIDERED SUBTLE JUST THREE STARLIGHT MONTHS AGO . Mar27_0325"Dreamt that New Phyrexia was a Jamboree , something i would visit every 50 years . Which obviously means "The cowards finally looked back and realized what they designed , and set themselves to never do it again , except that the 4.4bil periodicity is set in stone now ." For this i had to rescue a 2-headed cat , set up multiple choirs so i could sit out from some yet still get my own , time a dual artillery cannon juuust so , beat Enki at video games using bright orange PlayStation controllers , and slip in and out of a military installation . Simple , right? . Mar27_0400"Dreamt that i was in an apartment hallway , about to go home finally after having debugged the WHOOOLE circuit , and that once again Davvol tried to slam the door shut on my face , yet this time i not only got my foot in the door in time , that next time this occurs i will also have time to draw my pistol and call the police ." Mar27_0930"Dreamt that me and my best friend finally escaped from MARS , HI . We got out of the towering obsidian complex that looks like that one with the spider from Dune , held hands , and went Leavin· On A Jet Plane together . This is another example of a cozy dream that were actually a weapon , because we went HiMars , which would imply the plane crashed at supersonic speeds . Afterwards , things that couldn·t be seen kept trying to sit on me and to overlay and to use magic words to show off to their friends , as if killing two dreamers would have empied my body so they could get in it , waking me several times and disturbing my quality of sleep so severely that it took 12 hours of rest to catch up on 8 hours of sleep . When i woke up and looked in the bathroom mirror , within seconds there were Servitors obsessing over the creases of my face or the parting of my hair , trying to determine if it worked . Mar28_0545"Actually had three whole hours of deep , restful sleep ." Mar29_0530"Dreamt of a place with high technology . A new mega-sub , or a mantle rover , a place that also had a dream loom and was using it against me . At 0500 i remember waking up with a pile of sand in my hands , certain that i had seen or witnessed something yet not sure what . So , i went back under . The place was like a school , yet it wasn·t the Dream Factory . They regularly crank out renders of television serialization of peoples· lives , always something new and astonishing and yet starting over with each new episode . It was a place where they clone people , give the clones pretty lives and pretty lies , and train them to use the loom to hollow out the lives of the people they are cloned from . There was a house , with angular corridors and stairwells , where only a few people lived . One was some kind of Dad archetype , and at the start of the dream he had put something on , like a music player , except it didn·t play music , saying "Let·s see if she remembers this" . Without a MEG? . What are yu , nuts? . Another was Davvol , who draped his fat, sweaty body over me as if i were a teddy bear . The dream prefab saw nothing wrong with this , and yet i knew , i knew that it wasn·t supposed to be like that . So , when yu get to the point when the "Floor Panels" are like , here , watch me trigger a genetic memory that happened in a hermetically-sealed container... and the Baals are still going , "Oh yeah? You Se·d, did you? Yeah right. I·ll see you when you get down here!"... and we·ve identified that the RSI that overlaid a local with a designated character card was a match to an Elf working on TVP World , and the Abbey is full of Mimics , and the pharmacy is full of mimics , and a mainstream science fiction show was invaded by Changelings... and 2Kate and Baal keep looking at me as if they were continuously trying to determine if their agonization were working... and New New Phyrexia has numerous cards that are clearly references to Cock-and-Ball torture... and phenomena keep lining up to my every movement and twitch , that i can·t fart without an AI trying to line it up to people in my surroundings... and they cut my hormones off , which means the only alternative is to cut the Balls off... Meanwhile , The cadence of "Text Text Text Text Text Crøs Something Something Something Ht Text Text" has been showing up in peoples· speech patterns in YouTuBe videos in literally every major country in the world . Could somebody be very very quickly trying to prosh up the deeper meaning of the Sexigesimal before it·s far too late? . And if so , why the sudden kick into overdrive now? . h o t t e s t _ f r e s h _ i n t e l (!) https://m.youtube.com/playlist?list=PLaea0zryOqaghyPbhGeySrDBT3E1bagX8 l o n g _ t e r m _ h i g h _ r a n g e _ o p e r a t i o n s _ e x p o s e d (!) Mar30_0552"Dreamt that the Hungry Dragon Goddess , now dressed as 2Lo after gutting 2Kate , chased me thru smashed-together prefabs of places i had lived as a child , until finally , having ascended to the highest spire where my Grade 8 bedroom from 12 Coral Dr was waiting , i turned around and elbowed them in the face just as they were about to come thru the door . IRL , Having had every fucking life support snipped , from my pension to my workplace to my hormones to my friends to my inheretance and all hell else , i resolved to leave my beloved new world behind once more and return by train to Toronto . I suspect , with March of the Machine due on Apr 21 and a fully beautized Vladmir in place of "Archangel" Elspeth , that this left them in the unenviable position of being 2Kate now and 2Lo in three weeks , and me with my flat chest and conspicuous absence right now . And i mean really , if they didn·t know about the tall tall mouse door , or the single Ji , or the Satellite Fund , or the ion table , or the fact that denying me my painkillers would cause all the carefully sequestered gas bubbles in my intestines to all slip out at once , could they really afford to wave "Exquisite Control" around in my face as often as they did? Ka ." Wait a second... at the YeTrin Sali , "lack of Exquisite Control" was the most oft-selected excuse for allowing the program to fail , and i later saw a video clip suggesting that "we built a quantum ion wave analyzer" , and i know for a fact there·s been people reading my motions and thoughts to such excruciating granularity that it allows to-the-second Synthetic Telepathy , and table salt only contains Sodium and not Potassium , and every time i come up midtown for half a week i wind up pissing out all my electrolytes , and "consumption" is what caused the Fall of the Igigi... Yet if that were true , then it would mean that , far be it from some nerve impulses being render-breakingly non-natural , all nerve impulses were render-breakingly non-natural . Mar30_2104"On my way home , i walked thru the Intercity Mall , and i saw somebody with a Chuckie doll . These things are delightful to play with in 12 dimensions on a Dream Loom(!) . Our zooms in and out and around each other came at all kinds of neat angles , until eventually , i saw the poor thing get 3/4 of its head sheared off . Its head gets sheared off , the bloody stump pauses , the bloody stump laughs . I pause to make sure it·s okay(!) , then also cackle . May31_0626"In the 9th Circle of Hell , at the bottom of the dreamtime , all the way down the spiral staircase into the blackest black pits of infinity , there , using the Phyrexian Arena , dreamt þis came to me and tried to say hieeee and i already started kicking and punching her off . She got offended so i told her we weren·t friends , so she offers me ecstasy and beer and i·m like thhhhcccc that·s a lot of fuckin· fizzy-pop . After two sips i keep falling over , its like the world was going sideways , gravity going every which way , IBM tweed cubicles blending seamlessly into laquered paint high school , me trying like a cat on acid to get the fuck away from people chasing me while i slide around on the polished floors .Vasillios Dellows shows up and i slap him so hard it kills him . Then i lit him on fire with a loose cigarette . Everybody in the room panics and the world goes into another haywire spiral as people pile on to find the fire and put it out . Another clone of him walks in the fuckin· room and an all out brawl ensues . All of us get pulled apart , then Þis is grabbing my arms again . She brings me to a hospital room . Finally we get to this point where i see another nun . So i wave to her . Then the camera pans to some golden-haired wonder-fuck dressed up like the nun on the couch right next to him , so Þis starts the voice-over . One person gives their testimonial about how they·d been having dreams about being other people , and then another , and then another , so i·m like well fuck i keep having these dreams too . So Þis is like "Don·t you see? It·s teaching us to all become like each other!" AS IF I HADN·T JUST WRITTEN A POST ON THE 16 THINGS THAT ARE NOT EACH OTHER . Then they kill all the MEGs , i come up and hit the surface of the water so hard it nearly knocks the memory out of me , then an "Absurd Caretaker" "just shows off to his friends again about how he can wake me with a command word" . Awake while writing this , my palms are sweating and i·m shaking i·m so fucking angry . I·m so fucking sick of their data-siphoning "14 Howe to Justice Kali" monorail track that tortures my clones so that it can invade my dreams so that it can siphen off of my exorenderer so that some asshole stuck in a tree can figure out his way out of the worldwide slavery pit built around me that i want to tear it to pieces with my own two hands . Woke up in the 2h15m middle in between two sections of track ." SICK MAHOGONY MASTERING STUDIO BRUH STILL THIS ENTIRE STACK of fucking awful nightmares and dreams ALL occurred within ONE FUCKING MONTH . Mar31_0900"After numerous instances of watching fucking Atredians cause unsuspecting women trying to access safe resources to mutter obscenities in their sleep at the blatantly Phyrexian/Harkonnen shelter , today i got shot in the face with a data packet that tried to get me to label myself under the name Vasillios Bellows , ie Justin Trudeau , ie Paul Atreides , ie "Mr Torture-Pliers" , who absolutely will not stop trying to "erase" women . The weapon was a MEG (Magnetoencephalogram) . Today i got shot in the face with a weapon designed to kill me . And you don·t seem to understand .