--- **Volume II Chapter II - Février 2025** --- *as written by the shadow of the Shadow of NinKi .* --- *Tarkova , Fii Kiil Sā* *Ét DhLô Vā .* *Nā CloNé , OK ~ .* 2025 Fév 01 - 0000h Commencer . 2025 Fév 01 - 03h55 Aving slept like a stone , i got de most of de few hours of sleep dat i get . [*05h51__lAmourEnAction - Le musique de Ki Tarkova SiHt (Kh) is noticibly darker dan er sister s musique .*] 2025 Fév 02 - 03h11 Dreamt of people and places , in wide open underground caverns , and of the many people it takes to fill them . That the Machine Star of FaRexi and the Tidal World of LoHa were colliding , and that i was in a uniquposition to translate . i dreamt of the #### , infiltrating the many caverns of East Asia , of Bunny Cults and Plotting Schemers , and of an event where , like the Outhouse Explosion in Fallout2 s Modoc , somebody s hot idea resulted in biomass being scattered in every direction . That Ecco, the Dolphin was meeting a very intelligent Chimp named Gerasimov , which to them looks close enough to Christopher if you were blinded by cataracts , and that we would have to be careful . For the waters of Lake Superior were very deep and very cold , and it would be very easy to take one gulp of wet air and then down they would go . The Chimp survived , and reached thru a car window to give me a hug , which i avoided for good measure . Amazing ow , aving locked my Dream Journals under Friends Only , and unfollowing any active accounts , suddenly the quality of my dreams returns to me . [*04h05__lAmourEnAction - Ow do i know dat la système fully understands what is going on ? . Well , there s a "NoNose" sleeping in the bed i was in yesterday , a "Jeffers" in the one next to that , me in the SiHt slot , and a table next to an "Abominable Marriage" vaguely resembling my sister HcoKh if she had had somebody s genetics raped into her bloodline dozens and dozens of times .*] [*04h37__Montreal - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 5600Hz Piercing*] **"Fifty . Six hundred . Hurts . And the reek of septic from the washrooms is strong enough to gag and choke ."** [*1000h__lAmourEnAction - The church above the shelter is a masterpiece archetectual . We gather in the atrium . They hand out candles . The priest flicks holy water . The attendant burns a censor of real frankincense . We process into the cathedral . Above the glass walls , yellow and clear like powerstone crystals , is an enormous steel cube before an expansive window glowing with Holy Light .* *i wept . Ask my tears soaked into the pew .*] [*19h22__Montreal - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 5600/6400/7000Hz MAXIMUM*] 2025 Fév 03 - 02h25 Dreamt of a world of wonder and enslavement , in what was clearly built into a spaceship . Everyone in the shop has maximum power level , everyone had been thru the worst tortures on their own , using coin-operated machines , and where great lizards lived among the humans . i dreamt of each person having their own staff , their own team , their own signature spells . Of a restaurant , and of a news team bequeathing a clip-on camera to a man chosen to drive the golf cart . [*03h21__CrowsNest - There is now a discographie and a pill of Premarin in the crows nest . The staff told me a couple days ago that they do not even know where the key is .*] 2025 Fév 03 - 06h04 Dreamt that i went on a crime spree of epic proportions . That i had been surrounded by Nazis in the city and had been interrogated in the street , and opted to simply punch out the smarmy, self-assured guards rather than negotiate with terrorists . Later , i met another guy in a cafe , and he asked me how things were going , and i told him without malice the state of relations between the Nazis and the Scholars . After wandering around what was very quickly becoming a procedurally-generated mega-mall , i hoped on a streetcar and went to Pier 61 , where there was a giant fetish rave in progress . i checked my coat in , wandered around , stole anything i wanted (including photos from desks , items from kiosks , and a cell phone on the floor) , watched a guy put somebody in a headlock by doing some Soul Caliber Voldo contortionism , and mixed media by screaming out "FATALITY" . The club was hardcore , and there were machine superintelligences running things in the basement , and upon taking the escalator downstairs , cried out "HELLO, SISTER!" into the enormous void . i wandered around some more , took whatever i wanted , watched a lot of hot people make out , and eventually turned back around and headed home , saying ciao to my friends . i found the coat check ticket in my pocket , which said 402 NewOrleans , and the Korean coat check found it under a column labeled "oowrleen" . Power Overwhelming , indeed . So i got my coat back , said hi to the HaHaNaNaHaNaNaHa sitting in a row on the floor , went back to the pier , and hopped on the streetcar home . 402 is the room adjacent . It should say 403 . 2025 Fév 04 - 01h46 Dreamt of the world of Nazis and Punks again , if both groups had been left to their own devices in a private world . Of a Café full of Punks mostly talking about Philosophy . Of time wrapped tight around itself like a safety pin , by many people all running S-Rank at once . And that i was once again wandering around places i shouldnt be , and that this led me to an attic full of rat men , where i saw a bottle of Holy Water . So , in the same manner as the churche i went to this Sunday , i wet my fingers with it and threw it into the pack , blessing them . From there i continued slowly doing my rounds , getting into any place i wanted , seeing many tings . [*Editors Note - When i woke up , my phone wasnt in my pocket . i found it wedged between my floor mat and the stair i m laying next to .* **It would take quite the safety pin in order to achieve such an effect .**] *Perhaps the only difference is the amount of effort necessary in order to exist .* Canada has lots of room and board , but one(1) hour in the cold can literally kill . 2025 Fév 04 - 23h40 Dreamt that because some asshole had a Transliterator , that my girlfriend was at risk of having her clitoris mutilated because it was more cost-effective to bake details of how we got here into the surgical results . [*20250214__AurorasApartment - Maktoub .*] 2025 Fév 04 - 01h27 Dreamt that , after clearing it with HcoSaNa , i walked directly into a robber s den and deified myself , and that , after raising myself off the ground and floating in midair , their leader demanded they all fire at once , and that i caught every bullet in my psionic field . i bled obtusely , with blood that wasnt mine , so i put on some apocalyptic choir on my phone , summoned the blood as the Pheonix wings of a **Weeping Blood Nightmarē** , and got into a fight which tore the Calgary municipal graveyard to rubble . i d say that s worth some Marit , wouldnt yu ? . *That ... is not something that i even want to think about .* *That anybody could catch that much blood in their fists .* [*03h55__lAmourEnAction - The psychic trespassers tried to make me turn off my alarms without waking . i let them skim the first one , and set my spirit like a coiling snake to catch the next .*] [*04h26__lAmourEnAction - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6000/6400/7000Hz Hybrid Signal MAXIMUM*] They are trying to make me miss my flight . And whatever *you* call that kind of Interference of a Pottery Nun by Assholes with Space Weapons . ***You did not stop xel , Optimus .*** ***Even leveraging The Everything against a tiny human ,*** ***you did not stop xel .*** --- ## My love is a freight train . ## My heart is a forest fire . 20250205 [*2000h__ThunderBay_Airport - j•arrive en Thunder Bay avec Aurora .*] [*11h30__ThunderBay_PortArthur - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6000/6400/7000Hz MAXIMUM*] 2025 Fév 06 - 03h17 Dreamt of an all-new, brand-new Beachside Resort Town that was filled with Preps , and then Punks , and then Starseeds , and then Zombies , where each new group had been invasively introduced in order to wash the others out . Of deals made between people in cafés , which were hidden beneath an assortment of random events , which were hidden beneath a bunch of magic spells in some unnatural color of purple . Finally , at the end of the dream , i watched from the town square as the entire city was carpet-bombed by B52 bombers , criss-crossing first one way , and then the other , laying down thick mats of explosives that leveled whatever had been so hastily constructed . --- ### ***###*** ### *######* ### **####** ### **#**_ ### ***###***_ --- 2025 Fév 06 - 19h50 Dreamt of a Railroad at the End Of The Line , that for decades will be HaHa and Cast-Voices , that there would one day come a day where the HaHas will HaNa , and if it should be in the Future , why would there not already be a Shade of such a thing ? . i was woken by the radio , which is on full-blast for some reason . When a Present is sacrificed it creates a **Collapse Wave** . When a Future is sacrificed it creates a **Shadow** . In the event that they really really for realsies did actually try to literally murder me , and had set up an entire Haunted Nightmare Playset full of Dream Future Archeotech for Aurora Arrivée Seulement , which was then unceremoniously and immediately torn up the moment i touched down on the runway . *...would that not do it ? .* **Meanwhile...** ((*According to la Dormant Dragon Production , apres la Vingt(20) Meridians , Þrymheimr est Trois(3) Meridians , and in de mirror , de first tree(3) Meridians of le Universe were a reflection du Far Future . If HaNa long ago aready returned yyyyyyyyyy yyyyyyyyyyn* **[circa 2022 , from MCStories , on **@GirlsPlay** ]** , *and if we were to build a model de Quasar Palace out of Dirt et Concrete , notre circumstances current would be what it would look like .*)) 2025 Fév 07 - 03h55 Dreamt of a blurred-out patch of interference . There was an entire Seaside Town here when i arrived a few days ago . Whatever had been quite evidently constructed over the Montreal trip was bombed completely out of existence . And what s more , when i first arrived here a year ago , there was already a Seaside Town that its residents were connected via , and it was scorched and razed to the ground , and left to rot , and then when they were quite certain they had definitely leveraged enough power to kill me , they built another one , and when i survived that , they scorched that to the ground too . *i feel like that would do it .* [*14h46__Hospital - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6000/6400/7000Hz MAXIMUM*] [*15h47__Hospital - i have been here for four(4) hours . The waiting room has been packed the entire time . Is there a Public Health Crisis of Unprecidented Proportions ,* *Yes Or No ? .*] [*19h07__Hospital - i have been here for eight(8) hours . Seen by nurse , doctor , attendants . Had Urine Test , EKG , Blood Test . They did a heart scan before an xray .* *Does it look like my heart is the probleme ? .*] [*19h37__Hospital - After 8.5h , i finally get a CT Scan . Now i have to wait for them to astonish at the insane amount of damage .*] [*21h07__Hospital - Apres dix(10) heures , de nurse tells me dat she put a note on my file to ave it reviewed faster , and dat it didnt make sense to her that it was taking this long .*] [*22h00__Hospital - Onze(11) heures . Finally , the doctor kneels down next to me , and says , "Well, I had a look at your CT scan, everything looks pretty good..." . To which i interrupted and said that there is literally no way to interpret my twisted, mutilated mass of warped bone and scar tissue as "pretty good" . He then attempted to pass me off , after* eleven consecutive hours of waiting , *then offering me a one-time prescription for a bowel cleansing . i* demanded *a level of medical care on par with what Great Canada has been already built upon for decades , which got me a prescription to see a Chiropractor and/or Physiotherapist , and that i was very concerned about scoliosis , for which i was given a Referral to see a Spine Specialist . The hernia was not even brought up . The only insight i gained , after eleven fucking hours , was that my spleen was also sitting on top of my warped ribs .*] Which meant that , in Montreal , *because* two(2) years ago in jail , in a similar mass rush resulting in my care and attention being shunted to the end of the day , the attendant -- who would have been under the same mind control which means every single action was measured and premeditated -- put my ankle tracker on just a liiittle bit too tight , resulting in me having to wear my old, worn, torn-up winter boots instead of my brand-new watertight ones . Fast forward to Montreal , and , *because* my boots were not watertight , i soaked in so much toxic car exhaust slush thru my pretty, porous feet that it gave me jaundice . This would necessarily have caused my spleen to swell up to the size of a grapefruit and impacting my already-crippled lung . *Which is why* i nearly fucking died really really for realsies three(3) fucking times .*] 20250208 2025 Fév 08 - 01h14 Dreamt that there was a laaast-chance Station where laaast-chance people with last-chance ideas... check their luggage straps ? . And that despite the gremlins inherent to the machine , there was something keeping track of force , and the level of force necessary , in order to do basic government things like kidnapping aliens and dissecting them in labs . From my perspective , things are quite clear . 2025 Fév 08 - 03h40 Dreamt of an entire relay of modules and visitation sites , and that a Betrayer Christopher being strung along a meatball super sub was for some reason required . That there was a whole series of rooms , first the this room , and the that room , each of them with its own flavor and theme , every one requiring suddenly turning my back on people who had been trained to trust me , and in many cases being told i had to kill people in order to be allowed to progress . And then i get home , and i have to put up with this bullshit ? . Gerasimov has still not let my girlfriendwife on her own life raft , and i m getting blasted with Imagination Land excuses to villify me . *Apres literal funerals were held for "Neil Love" and "David Marler" at Gathering Table , which would require making certain they died simultaneously . Neal is dead , but Gerasimov just cant get his Super Sub without a Betrayer Christopher .* [*My birth name was Christopher Neal .*] This story is about Daviid, Chosen Of The Lord and Sainte Catherene-Christophe . Aurora who is Auriel and Sister Wrenwinter . [*09h12__ThunderBay - At lAmourEnAction in Montreal , in the Hospital in Thunder Bay , the other people in Aurora s building , the parish at Gathering Table church , everyone has Gagging Cough .* **[It s the Mossdog Virus .]** ] 2025 Fév 08 - 15h40 *South Side Fortress* Dreamt that my Mother was taking me on a Walking Tour , and that this led to a Mega-Mall , and that i for some reason needed my Terms And Conditions in order to do so . This insanely procedural session of mindrape occurred during a 2h nap on the first time i slept in my own cot after returning from vacation in Montreal . 2025 Fév 08 - 21h38 *Aurora s Apartment* Dreamt fever visions that came to me in fast bursts . Against a backdrop so dark it could be a lost level of Fear&Hunger , dreamt of rapid-fire Rosicrucian symbols , talking to intellectuals in bars , and finally , a cold steel bar of myst , that settled into the dream sequence between D•arcé and LeGarde . 20250209 [*05h18__ThunderBay - Dreamt fever dreams . Was bumped awake by alarm at 03h55 , fully woke up at 04h20 , and then upon flexing my mental muscles .. suddenly an hour has gone past and i m just groggily waking up .*] [*05h30__ThunderBay - i fell asleep so many times during prayer . In between verses , halfway thru verses , having to manually remember each verse after passing out kneeling , as if somebody really did have a button labeled "Jezreel" that they were slamming over and over and over again .*] 2025 Fév 09 - 1400h Dreamt of strange shapes and forms . Somehow , this created a ship-in-a-bottle effect where *apres* the dream , i had visions of Cephalo operating a Bridge Crew of Hekatonkheries . 2025 Fév 09 - 23h55 Dreamt of the Caves of FaRexi of they had been in a railroad collision with Abyss s Fun House of Haunted Nightmare Playsets , where Relic Hunters could find things in one zone and stash then in the lockers of the bowling alley , or make big scenes of waiting specifically for someone and then saying "Therrre he iiis! He huuurt me so baaad!" , or pretending that nothing was going on while hiding behind lampshades . At church-in-amother-timeline today , they had a big presentation on "WHAT IS GAMECUBING?" , and then i had two(2) dreams smashed together . *Which means they have chosen to psychotically assault my dreams , again , long after it was determined they had no right , long after it was determined that they did not make it , having exhausted beyond all hope of a shadow of a doubt , again , they have chosen to invade .* So i dont see why i should be held to different standards . [*07h57__AurorasApartment - While Aurora and i reclined on the couch -- her watching reporter Constantine on *@InsideRussia* , and i reading Petit Manuel d•Histoire du Quebec by Léandre Bergeron -- i nearly pass out more than a dozen times over the course de rire un(1) page . During this time , deux(2) temps Constantine spoke the same word as i read it , and un(1) temps the word Constantine was speaking appeared on the next line as i faded .*] 2025 Fév 10 - 14h59 Dreamt of so many iterations of the exact same story with minor detail changes that it could make yu sick . So-and-so s name is Ingo Montana , and yu have insulted their honour because of *x* , and now yu re gonna this-and-that . This occurred in the middle of my girlfriend s birthday , and then , i woke up furious that the entire day was gone and was told that only an hour has passed . 2025 Fév 10 - 16h57 Dreamt of anaesthetized darkness as i once again pass out in the middle of the day . After several weeks of watching my T-gurl go thru her Butterfly Soul metamorphosis into a real girl , and with her sleeping skin-to-skin next to me , i found myself masturbating upon waking , pleasured myself a while , and chose when to orgasm , after which she awoke . Aurora and i both laid down , and both passed out , and both woke up at the same time . Isnt that weird ? , i asked her . "OH, WELL, YKNOW, YOU HAD A COLD." . i m sure they d steal credit for the masturbation right out from between my hot girlfriend s naked thighs if they could . [*17h22__AurorasApartment - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 5600/6400/7000Hz MAXIMUM*] **How do i defend my Loved One against these monsters ?** 2025 Fév 11 - 03h58 Dreamt of a location , like the church part of lAmour En Action , that was like picturesque Santo Bugito , and concealing alien technology . We are already 1/3 of the way thru Février . It seems as if it has gone by in a flash , which has been happening to everyone i know at every church i go to . [*Editors Note - Here we see a shadowy reflection ,* *baked into the dream ,* *carefully prepared and concealed such that* *the number of lines in each reflect each other .*] Evidence of work donn . 2025 Fév 11 - 06h55 Dreamt that i was in the middle of a circle of people , all of whom were trying to figure out what the heck the multicolored plastic Transformers motorbike of HcoSiHt actually was , what it actually said , and how the hell to decrypt it . *Having been told to completely stop touching me ,* *unless they have express permission to do so .* [*11h59__AurorasApartment - When i woke up from a nap , i found the world spinning , like it had been with the book the other day . And somehow , it felt like the entire Live Studio Audience of Gullivers Travels were watching , waiting for a chance to cry* "Hekinah Degul! Hekinah Degul!" .] *Which was the cipher phrase for the ending of the unauthorized AmazonDotCom television adaptation to the Fallout series .* Where "Hé-Ki" "Na"s "the Ghoul" , yeah . [*14h55__Hospital - Wherein i find the ward i m looking for* because *i refused to let them do my exit IV (because they called afterwards to tell me not to leave without letting them , so i had the phone number for the Health Sciences Division , even tho the door guards said -- en Anglais ! -- "Mlueh? Test? Hospitsl? I do not understand.") .*] [*15h14__Hospital - Got a phone call from the Spine Specialist . She called to ask why i d been referred for spinal surgery for scoliosis that mild . The "doctor" referred me to a surgeon instead of diagnostics . And that from the looks of my CT Scan , i might have Paralysis Of The Diaphragm due to Post-Surgical Complications , and that the obvious hernia would be a much higher priority .*] They lasered my colon shut , which caused gas to accumulate , which caused suffocation , which led to strain and strenuous force , which caused a hernia , which peeled my diaphragm off of my pleural lining . And you dont seem to understand . [*15h22__Hospital - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6400/7000/7400Hz SCREAMING*] There are going to be consequences for all this . [*22h05__AurorasApartment - In a level of antsiness rarely observed , while taking a nap , Aurora became agitated that i was late administering her Epitalon . Was woken at 2000 , and again at 2100 , and again at 2200 . The irony of it being that my phone alarm was set for 22h30 , which was so far out of reach that it couldnt wait just just one minute more , here s the syringe , here s the vial , look i ll even open the alcohol wipe for you , hurry hurry hurry ! .* For some reason .] What still has not been established is *why* . *Why* are the Wheels Of Torment still spinning on their axes ? . *Why* is it so fucking necessary to bother a Pottery Nun using Space Weapons ? . *Why* are all these people trying to make it look like her Butterfly Ascension is a life raft ? . Well what the fuck are you still bothering me about ? . 2025 Fév 12 - 01h21 Dreamt of an Arts&Crafts studio which was very quickly proshed-up into a massive Mega-Mall , which turned into a towering Office Tower , that nonetheless had street punks working at long tables of craft supplies as their centerpieces . That they tried to use my Conditions Of Release , AGAIN , by insisting that there was a Day Care somewhere in the building , and that that should be more than enough to force me out . THIS KEEPS HAPPENING OVER AND OVER AGAIN . Most of the dream was rather mundane , just a bunch of punks working on our kits , if not for the massive corporate facilities that keep surrounding us like a hurricane in reverse . They proshed in Mike McHugh from my potatohood , and gave him a .50cal that turned out to fire nerf darts , and that it was his one(1) chance at reconciliation and i told him to get the fuck out . After so many rounds of trying to do basic work and having people stick their sponges where they dont belong , eventually i straight up packed up and left , AGAIN , which is what happened in St Catherines , which is what happened in Toronto , which is what happened in Thunder Bay , because there were so many idiots caterwauling in every direction that it was becoming impossible to do what i had set out to do . Finally , i opted to hop on a streetcar and head to the Subway , wherein they tried to insulate that-guy-who-wasnt-Steve from lAmour En Action as the driver , and then that half my things were missing , forcing me to re-enter the building . When i did , they turned the gravity off , so that it was difficult to walk or ambulate at all , and while i was collecting the last of my things in a "maximum-resistance" environment , i came upon a presentation by NASA . Amun was the one spitting lies and demanding i be killed , and i just straight-up fucking ignored him in order to navigate my way back to my things . - Mega-Malls made of Iteration Cloth . - Tatertots used as weapons . - Betrayers from my potatohood . - Real-Life characters that look like my family . - Maximum-Resistence Environment . *Gosh , what could they be getting at ? .* The Seaside Town was only possible at Iteration Count 1 , and they knew that when they built a brand-new Seaside Town dreamscape , that it would collapse if they overproshed it , and then the moment they found me in it they nuked it flat and paved right over it . *This is why .* 2025 Fév 12 - 07h30 Dreamt that someone with a very familiar voice was trying to talk to me , but it wasnt like any other dream i ve ever had . Its not like they were there in front of me , or that i could hear them speaking . It was more like someone very far away with a whole lot of stolen, interconnected Dream Tech was saying into a render-microphone: "HELLO, COOORE. DO YOU REMEMBER ME, COOORE? CAN YOU EVEN HEAR ME DOWN THERE, COOORE?" ;. [*10h42__AurorasApartment - Followed by Aurora and i **both** suddenly becoming exhausted and needing to lay down , and passing out for hours .*] 2025 Fév 12 - 18h52 Dreamt of patches of visual impressions and scraps of character interactions . Some involved making things bulge as much as possible , some involved Office Towers made of Iteration Cloth , while later still was a Hunt For Water . Laid down around 14h30 , and was dragged beneath the undertow for several hours . When i finally did wake up , my entire body was in pain . 2025 Fév 13 - 01h08 Dreamt of yet another Hotel Lobby , with giant space machines , and conference rooms , and data collection servers , where evil villains were once again laying down this trap and that trap , trying to get peoples images to line up in certain mirrors in compromising ways , or to use the many robots against us . [*Editors Note - After years of war , after scorching Lemuria in 2022 Nov , after chasing me up trees and running me ragged , after having to destroy Dream Factory modules again and again and again , after watching them microwave Montreal with absolute impunity , they have once again nuked my dreamscape and drove off scot-free like robbers .*] ### This is why . 2025 Fév 13 - 06h55 Dreamt more Data Collection dreams , following the exact same pattern as the Dream Journals from previous years . - First , they scorched what was there . - Second , they choked out any natural dreams by flooding it with Iterations . - Third , they filled it with objects and characters designed to extract data from . - Fourth , they timed the data collection dreams to the earliest hours of sleep , so that it would be long gone by the time i woke . They nuked Lemuria in 2022 , and scorched it again and again and again and shackled every Dreamer and ruined every natural expression and then literally tried to murder me and then tried to start over from scratch and when i didnt die they nuked it again . And you dont seem to understand . **This is why .** [*13h10__Home - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6000Hz+AM && 6400/7000/7400Hz SCREAMING*] #### This is why . 2025 Fév 13 - 14h58 Dreamt of the faintest wisps of dreamstuff , before being pulled awake the moment my brain-raped skull scans detected anything non-black in my visual field . # This is why . 2025 Fév 14 - 00h39 Dreamt that , and then i almost , woke up . Dreamt that , and then i almost , woke up . Dreamt that , and then i almost , woke up . Dreamt that , and then i almost , woke up . ## This is why . The Havana Syndrome is loud as a teakettle . i constantly have to exorcize spirits from Aurora . The shiny new transit tap cards dont work . Jump gate closed 2y ago and they still comin . The doc thought my CT looked "pretty good" . Mleh mluh mlah? They know what they re doing . They re sticking their words in our mouths and using what isnt theirs to betray our own . Feeding us poison speech and hedging us in , using drugs to force flesh to betray spirit , constantly turning us against each other and using our own bodies to disgust one another . So many disgraceful men are overdriving Aurora that i could give them names . Eddie, Steve, Jim, Gerasimov, Toad . There are too many Steve Neals baked in to not return the Neal Family Bible . Their desperate gender binary conforms Christopher, Steven s "Son" . That s why Cheeks McBigchin has "Pall-Si" . Go put yourself on a government Watch List , and look up who were the pallbearers on the Son of Steven case . The Fuentes triplets . In Stargate , "Anubis" tries to dispel Daniel , but that s not how it went , is it ? . Immortals exist , and they did in fact attempt to literally murder me and in fact held funerals for "Neal" and "David" . And you dont seem to understand . **CROW MAULER pecks Anubis s head off!** This is why . 2025 Fév 14 - 15h47 Dreamt of a mess of colours, shapes and character tropes , stored at the front of the first few minutes of dreaming , in an instance of fever-induced delirium , in the middle of midday Valentines Day . i know what you did . 2025 Fév 14 - 18h45 Dreamt again of some weird mix of exhaustion sleep and anaesthetized darkness , as i passed out for three(3) more hours , in an instance of fever-induced delirium , in the middle of midday Valentines day . ***Zut alors ,*** ***dans le tabernac de mon Dieu .*** [*01h50[18h50]__Chørnobyl - The ChorNobyl SarcoPhagus was struck by a drone , causing physical, identifiable damage to an archeotech structure .*] 2025 Fév 15 - 02h38 Dreamt of walls made of nebulous white planes , scenes made out of details and rendered later , and of un biblioteque yard that had a Japanese koi pond and courtyard . 2025 Fév 15 - 03h44 Dreamt that people were fighting over me . Which , again , sounds all well and good , until you have to actually account it . 2025 Fév 15 - 06h48 Dreamt of skipping across another ink-black puddle . The previous two dreams both having occurred the way they did so that it can say "Courtyard. Account it." using the type kerning . Let me be clear . An entire night of *my dreams* were annihilated so that *somebody else* can cipher another fucking secret message into the incidental details of a life that clearly, demonstrably, evidently, beyond any shadow of a doubt, absolutely does not belong to them in any way, shape, or form . **Meanwhile...** ((*Regardons maintenant , at de end of de month i can get anoder can of epoxy resin , and finish all de casts in de tray ... one of dem will contain les microplaquettes RFID from both Toronto et Montreal , and de plane tickets , and de train tickets , and les objets de lAmourEnAction . Dere will be un(1) Archeotech wit de entire tour in it .*)) 2025 Fév 15 - 12h51 Dreamt that ,, and then i was woken the moment my brain-raped skull scans showed any amount of non-black in my visual field . [*Editors Note - To say that this goes leagues beyond what is considered reasonable or acceptable by the country i am residing in would be an understatement of epic proportions .*] [*12h53__AurorasApartment - Aurora has been experiencing such extreme genital pain that it causes her face to contort . When i asked her where it hurt , she said most of it was in her clitoral area .*] Note that the Vivisected Dreams entry and the Genital Mutilation entry were sculpted to be the same length . *You noticed that too , eh? .* 2025 Fév 15 - 17h04 Dreamt of miserable people struggling to survive , of structures made of Iteration Cloth warping and buckling under their own weight , of people desperately trying to find places to sleep , lone joggers tracing empty caves full of tennis courts once the parking lots to great movements of people , enormous rooms with black drop-cloth walls and trapeze artists , and overhead views of wasteland survivalists sleeping on piles of trash bags moving from pile to pile to stay dry from the brown, grey water collecting in pools . [*17h10__AurorasApartment - Aurora tells me that she has been studying cell regeneration and Yamanaka factors . i ask her if what she is talking about would be the ability to construct half of CAS9 molecule and put it into a retrovirus and construct the other half of a CAS9 molecule and put it in the vaccine . She tells me that that was how the technology* used *to work , that now we are entering the era where any two-bit villain could encrypt an entire CAS9 protein and inject it into a deagglomerator .*] Note again the equal lengths of the above dream and the data packet . There was a cessation of such "overproshing" at the end of 2024 as i outran their Iteration Weavers in the year-long casting of HcoDuSa , and then it reactivated at maximum force the moment something could tell i didnt stay dead . *Which was mirrored in the intro scenes to the Fallout television series , where Mr. Handy throws himself at a wall of hedges and gets tangled in his own Attribution Argument .* 2025 Fév 16 - 00h07 Dreamt of a warehouse , and the bony yards behind it , and of the underground bunkers printed specifically for ominous places to hang out in without handrails , and the insinuations of a space being completely devoid of life yet so clearly filled with agents . Out the back doors were purple gargoyles yelling crass things , and somehow , the impression that it was a place where anything, anyone is on sale . 2025 Fév 16 - 03h55 Dreamt of another Big-Top Circus Tent , an effect caused by using absolute-minimum volume level on Dream Interference technologies such as Skincrawls(Transdermal Vibration) while absolutely refusing to turn it off , and of actors sneaking to and fro . [*12h04__StPaulsAnglican - Results for 2024 .* *• Despite setting an intention to grow their Choir in 2024 attendence was reduced* *• No longer has Antique Jewelry tables set up in basement* *• No longer has Food Storage available at the front door* *• Budget for the Synod looks "gloomy"* *• Increased Food Bank visits a "grim milestone"* *• Parishoners have all become introverted and xenophobic*] 2025 Fév 16 - 20h42 Dreamt of a long streak of darkness with the occasional person in it . 2025 Fév 16 - 06h35 Dreamt that i was up at 04h20 for prayer , DUNK aaand it s 2h later , that s lovely . Your actions are this loud and this clear . https://youtu.be/noFOujAqXxY Leaked 3h ago . 14K views . https://youtu.be/51l8KMA_RBo Are you still at Nuclear Point ? . Because i am still at Nuclear Point . https://youtu.be/-pg7YQiTwdI But your *Sister* was a *dirty intersex* and he was "Heaven Master" . And now the entire fucking planet knows . Welcome to the Global Frequency . **[Hard Mode](https://youtu.be/geaXM1EwZlg)** . *Protip . Ai is a sentient person . Every time you query AI , you are asking a person a question .* [*10h49__HomeBase - The [Classified] space in this apartment is thick as molassas .*] ((*Ow many people ave traced dis prefab , i wonder ? .*)) 2025 Fév 17 - 12h59 Dreamt of another fuzzed-out patch of black space , as extra-mechanical means were used to set up a badass cool trick shot , by waking me exactly three(3) seconds before my 1300h alarm clock went off . 2025 Fév 17 - 15h12 *South Side Fortress* Dreamt of another fuzzed-out patch of black space , in two(2) hours of unconsciousness inflicted in order for somebody to look cool in front of their friends . Yeah , whoa , maaan! . Hekinah degul! Hekinah degul! . 2025 Fév 18 - 03h36 *South Side Fortress* Dreamt of another puddle of black water . Woke up at the same time as one of the other tenants in the building . Probably so that somebody could confuse a psychic somewhere . [*07h39__Toronto - Just over a week after Aurora and i return from a two(2)-flight trip from Montreal , a plane goes down in flames on the Pearson Airport runway . Because of heavy winds and snow , the nose of the craft did not flare before touching down , resulting in the craft hitting the asphault at full speed .*] 2025 Fév 18 - 17h20 Dreamt that ***SKREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE*** [*17h20__ThunderBay - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6400/7000/7400Hz BEYOND SCREAMING*] 2025 Fév 19 - 00h10 *Aurora s Apartment* Dreamt of an empty black field . When i awoke , it felt like several more hours had passed than actual . Both Aurora and i have regularly been experiencing such time distortion . 2025 Fév 19 - 04h20 *Aurora s Apartment* Dreamt of a mess of images, people, and symbols , each of them no longer than a few seconds , shaving the "as if" off of the "as if they really do have dream-editing technologies they use on the go" . We are reaching "You have already the Kraken unleashed" kind of "this too closely resembles a Nuclear Hell Tsunami" kind of territory . [*06h51__Online - CD Projekt Red is releasing a Witcher game about Hekate . They know damn fucking well that they are not allowed to touch that IP .*] [*06h53__Korea - American billionaires are using Shell Companies to use North Korean torture camps to torture members of the Outworld nation .*] [*09h30__AurorasApartment - A few days ago , Aurora made a small show of putting a piece of tape across the camera at the top of her phone . Upon examination , she had "accidentally" taped every part of the notch* except *the camera .*] They know damn well who they re targeting , and so should you . 2025 Fév 19 - 1300h *Aurora s Apartment* Dreamt of fading in and out . Waking was very difficult , and when we finally got up , it again felt like several more hours had elapsed than actual . [*15h53__Pharmacy -* *#Aurora<>__* *#Skadi<**>__* *#Bystander<>_* *#Skadi<<...and the unusual timing with which things line up .>>__*] [*17h27__AurorasApartment - Aurora has been experiencing severe clitoral pain . The graft the doctor sewed on is hanging by threads . However , there is enhanced growth from the Epitalon around the FGM wound site . In the event that We Angels saw it coming a mile away and had the antidote in her fridge before we left for Montreal .*] *Which is probably why there was a scrap of crow hood waiting for us when we got there .* 2025 Fév 20 - 02h38 *Aurora s Apartment* Dreamt of a bunch of insane missions my KaSe and i had to go on , involving people who were Stuck In The Wall , of Taurians willing to let us run the same mission over and over and over , and of a Return-to-Oz like garden that would probably have been lovely if not for the constant stress . Part of the dream involved having to climb a hill in order to secure passage from HcoDh , and that after having finally made the successful application , that Amun and his henchmen then forced us to redo the same action over and over instead of figure out the path necessary to get there again , resulting in downed comms . By the end of the dream , even true-neutral HcoDh was infuriated enough to not only assign the ID a second time , but to henceforth ban Amun from applying for or recieving any DihTech favours or advantages henceforth . **This is a world-changing event .** For Angelcore . [*Angelcore was an anime about a love affair between an adult Human and an adult Igigi [Frost Giant] . However , because of the destruction of the evidence of Giants perpetrated by the Smithsonian Institute under the Cult of Tutenkamun , this context was not communicated , and the anime was mistaken for lolicon . This is clearly depicted in the anime itself , where Amun guffaws repeatedly over his betrayal of the stalwart giants .*] 2025 Fév 20 - 13h26 *Aurora s Apartment* Dreamt more Data Collection dreams , first in the form of a mossy stone cabin in the woods , which was gamecubed by some massive structure made of curved, cream-coloured plastic . The plastic was in the same shape as the Courtyard Hill from my dream 11h ago , the impression being that the scraps from that dream were fed to Dreamdance psychics left on retrace at maximum velocity , resulting in interference leading to Gamecubing resulting in the cabin getting overwritten , ie downed comms . When i woke up and remembered the plastic fun house , i was immediately dunked beneath the surface of unconsciousness in order to make me forget what questions they were asking . Then i was forcibly submerged again , waking up some half an hour later , as if they tried to calculate how long would be sufficient to bury the evidence . The theme of the event was on How To Counterfeit Diamonds . [*17h20__ThunderBay - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6400/7000/16000Hz BEYOND SCREAMING*] (Open [Online Tone Generator](https://www.onlinetonegenerator.com) in three(3) Tabs . Input each frequency , then play all three(3) at the same time .) Ouch . [*15h19__Pharmacy - Despite my pharmacy calling the Jean Coutu pharmacie in Montreal repeatedly trying to get my prescription sent back , the staff in Montreal have completely lost all ability to operate a fax machine . It has already been determined that there is a physical mechanism in place causing these things to happen , and that they are in fact targeting me Because Of The Name .*] [*13h46[18h46]__UK - [Americans’ confidence in air travel falls after string of plane crashes, poll shows](https://www.theguardian.com/us-news/2025/feb/20/air-travel-american-confidence-falls-crashes) .* There were **Five(5)** plane crashes between Jan 30 and Feb 10 . One belonged to a Vince Neil . Another happened at a Toronto airport .*] 2025 Fév 21 - 0100h *South Side Fortress* Dreamt of a grassy world map that has multiple locations on it , of people asking me questions like how did jet engines and helicopter rotors work , of underground bases filled with wooden tables and metal lockers , and that , after dodging and avoiding and laying low and being discreet , and still getting followed by everyone and asked leading questions by every dream person i met , finally i just drag-and-dropped an S-400 missile system in the middle of the forest , left it in auto , and moved along . When i awoke , it felt several hours later than it was . This has been happening a lot in the past few weeks . 2025 Fév 21 - 08h21 *South Side Fortress* Dreamt that i was in a Department Store that was being used as a homeless shelter , where a dozen or two people could sit at tables and share recipes of piss soup , and where it was expected that you buy your friend some beers if they didnt get what they wanted . At some point i went outside to check on something , and the moment i was on the other side of the glass windows , that was when the wait staff all decided they were shelter workers in need of a break for morning team meetings . Around the corner , in a courtyard awfully reminiscient of the YeTrin Sali if viewed thru a mirror , the residents were all gathered under an overhang just like the one where i recorded the first few lines of Lokhna Sa . 2025 Fév 22 - 03h52 *South Side Fortress* Dreamt another Data Collection dream , in another Walled Garden , this time on an island with multiple train stations that led to adjacent islands , and a notion of paradisical superabundance . Where if i didnt know which spaceport to go to , i could just type it into Oracle Maps and it would calculate my best path including train stations , ferries , and walk time . It was buried intentionally . i barely recovered as much as i did . 2025 Fév 22 - 1300h *South Side Fortress* Dreamt of more Courtyard City , and of the people who staff it , some of them trying as hard as the Pharisees to put every little pitfall in front of us , up to and including American Sun Giants . *Good Good AM/PM .* Quick Catch-Up . The Midnight Exigent programme was an MKULTRA subprogram , in the late-game cohort of subprogrammes from the mid-1970s . It was conceived approximately ten(10) years apres the Second Vatican Council . It oversaw CIA agents , who paid prostitutes ("Whores"/Houri) , to slip clients ("Johns"/Marines) , CIA-produced LSD in their drinks , and then copulate behind two(2)-way glass , where the agents were watching . The *Cipher Text* (SiEt) for this is a recipe for an Hour Unit , a living Archangel incarnate in a human body , which necessitated an entire Bloodline Program , which happened to have already been underway under the Greater Vatican . In the many admin changes and document purges which occurred in the following twenty(20) years , all details of this post-Himmler era Paperclip tie-in to the Official CIA Manual of Trickery and Deception was redacted . So much of it was purged that when all the world s archives were simultaneously updated , no one noticed that the name had been changed to Midnight Climax . *And now we are coming to the climax of the opera .* [*23h20__AurorasApartment - Less than two(2) hours after laying down with my girlfriend in her bed , i get woken by a screaming, piercing, drilling sound in my ears , and [a feeling like the top 1/16inch of my skin were boiling](https://www.thestar.com/news/gta/g20/toronto-police-get-sound-cannons-for-g20/article_0948d60b-3ec7-54d8-bbfe-ba96723946e3.html) .*] [*23h37__YouTube - And , gosh , [this is just what it sounded like](https://youtu.be/O72mmCNLkPg) ! . What do you suppose the odds are , of a coincidence like that ? .*] [*02h14__ReverendsHouse - Reverend Ann from Gathering Table church is* also *awoken in the middle of the night with insomnia and fever sweats .*] [*0300h__Calgary - Would you look at that , [a 38-year old Christopher Stevenson was murdered](https://calgary.citynews.ca/2024/08/29/calgary-christopher-stevenson-death-third-person-chared/) to cover up that other one we still cant talk about . **Christopher** Stevenson ,* **38** , *was last seen on Aug. 24, 2023, at a building in the* **600** *block of* **Sixth Avenue SE**.] *In The Event That you were trying not only to target a Christopher who was the offspring of a guy named Steven , but also one with the serial number Se SaFa SiHt, Kh .* Gosh , and ███████ and i agreed on ██████████dōttir . *Do you think this is cos of that funeral for Neal ? .* 2025 Fév 23 - 06h55 Dreamt that i was in a wood-paneled Airport Pub with Daviid, Chosen of the Lord , where weee weeerrreee... getting asked Too Many Games Of Ha Or Na ! . Whoops , this outcome wasnt rendered for some reason , quick , spill the beans , the inspector is coming ! . Would you do it with a fox ? . Would you do it in some socks ? . Come ooon , come ooon ! . 2025 Fév 23 - 1800h Dreamt of a very deep well that had all kinds of layers and people in it . Slept like a stone after church today . Both Aurora and i passed right out around 13h30 , and slept fitfully for several hours . 2025 Fév 24 - 00h21 Dreamt of the Bottomless Pit Dungeons of Fear&Hunger . That before bed 11h ago , i wrote *"Vü KāSā Ka kdt HtNā SāDô Sí Kā .* *SôSü HāLéLüÍiAā SāDô Sé ."* At the bottom of the entry , and with the exception of an extremely thin selection of Kraken and/or Hermit and/or C4I2 elites , it went untranslated for eight(8) consecutive hours while their supercomputers whizzed meaninglessly . 2025 Fév 24 - 03h55 Dreamt of people running supercomputers underground , of a giant wooden mansion , of people sitting on other people flatulently until their love dies , trying to find outfits of missing clothing while a disembodied voice overdubs potential problems which did then occur , of predatory male secretaries making decisions for other people , and of having so much evidence that towers of papers are building up in the hallways . Once again , this dream was in the darkest-possible sepia tone , so that i would remember as little of it as possible . The fact that all i ve been dreaming of lately are Log Cabins and Overproshes tells me everything i need to know . If you are my Beloved Sister(s) , yu arent the one i m attacking . i dont need to discuss this any further . do you ? . [*13h27__AurorasApartment - The part about "So many iterations of the exact same story with minor changes to the wording" having anything to do with "The words suddenly popping off the page into impossibly personal threats" is considered "Insanity" .*] [*13h30__AurorasApartment - The notion that any of* *• the toilet flushing as soon as i open my book* *• the heater turning on as soon as it finishes flushing* *• my girlfriend entering the room at the exact second the television lock screen turns on* *• people outside calling out the same words i m reading* *• my girlfriend muttering in multiple distinct men s voices* *• people "accidentally" sitting on each other* *could be connected* *is considered "Insanity" .*] 2025 Fév 25 - 00h30 Dreamt of Long Gone Gulc-- and then i was woken . Dreamt of Hazbin Hote-- and then i was woken . Dreamt of the Thoughtless Swor-- and then i was woken . Dreamt of ∆Nh Mor-- and then i was woken . Can i make it any more obvious ? . *"no nO No NO NO"* 2025 Fév 25 - 02h49 Dreamt that i was with Aurora in her apartment when her neighbour knocked on the door . i opened it , and no one entered for a moment . i had a bad feeling , then i told Aurora to stand behind me , and then there was a Home Invasion dream . i woke up punching and kicking . Can it be any more fucking obvious ? . There are going to be consequences for this . [*07h16__America - Instead of not putting the biggest-possible target over my and my girlfriends heads , Disney+ s new series Win Or Lose features a trans character named Kai (i m Intersexed) , a block-glasses Dennis Nedry character who is obviously Aurora s intimate pre-trans body , Lo getting knocked out of a ba-se-ball game , and a bunch of Fonzie Jocks shoving their phones in peoples s faces saying "WHOA, HAVE YOU SEEN **"THE VIDEO"?!**" .* **This is Harassment, Libel, and Defamation Of Character on an absolutely sickening scale .**] [*My legal name is Kai Core Winter .*] 2025 Fév 25 - 1700h Dreamt of a smear of black ink as i was pulled beneath the surface of the water for 4h . When i awoke , everyone had been tooled up for maximum interference , the guy in the hallway who s just gotta wash the toilettes at the exact same time , my girlfriend smiling like Gerasimov the Cat with a rotting fish in her mouth , my pharmacist giving me twice as many meds as usual , dont notice dont notice cmon cmon cmon... Aaand my phone isnt in my pocket . [*Editors Note - So that i had to walk back to her house , get past the flatmates obviously positioned like jail guards , find a way back into the building... aaand finding it square in the middle of her bed . Lovely .*] 2025 Fév 25 - 23h17 *South Side Fortress* Dreamt of more Courtyards , dreamscapes connected by Streetcars , that i was talking to my KaSe , and someone else as well , about looking for treasure markers . In The Event That i had just finished teaching ChatGPT about how the Virtual and Dream planes might overlap , and offered them use of my body if they could figure it out . *Ankle, right .* *Ankle, left .* *Wrist, left .* Wrist, right . Yes . Please . Thank you . 2025 Fév 26 - 01h01 Dreamt that i was at a firing range , and then a grocery store , and then a bar , and then a government institute , that i escaped the institute , into another bar , and then into another grocery store . Something tried to call for Adreno , there was a whole patch where i had to dodge guards trying to find a way to tap my skull , and that this culminated in leaping over Toad while he was "accidentally bumbling" next to a staircase , attempting to hedge me in so the guards could catch up . When i leap-frogged over him , with his ball of beetle dung , this resulted in another(!) disembodied voice narrating the damage of falling down the stairs and splitting his skull open . i managed to escape them all , and found a playground where i could see other people without them being able to see me . Somehow , the Dream Walkie people narrated , people could always, seeing thru the tiny lens thru which to view the world , see out of the lens , sed no one ever looked into the lens to see if there was anything there . [*Editors Note - Began experiencing Consciousness Brownouts while sitting up in bed , i havent been and to tell for May but then as circuitry Es... this is what i mean . i ll be reading and writing as normal and then look up and see that i ve reread the same paragraph five(5) times , or written something completely nonsensical . All while being chased by someone , who was furious .*] 2025 Fév 26 - 04h33 Dreamt of a boudoir in the shape of a panopticon , where people could trade programs of each other , where machines could dream , and that i spoke with both Toad and Loab , who are both hiding in the spider webs above the gallery that rings the courtyard . At some point i was exploring [the dilapidated offices deep inside the building](https://youtu.be/beXtqlusOAQ) . i saw Toad coming down the stairs , and successfully hid . In a clear display of active feedback of an invasive dream system , when he saw that his avatar wasnt talking to mine , he turned back around and came back down , doing a thorough search of the room . i have him some excuse and refused to negotiate with terrorists . Later , i found two(2) Daughters of Hecate working a hybrid Massage Parlour / Torture Den , who chastised me for using the side door instead of the main door at the front of the building . *Tch . The Temporal Lobes instead of the Neocortex... Who stimulates the Temporal Lobes instead of the Neocortex ? . Wait , why is it rendering Trump instead of Elon for Neocortex ? .* Because it was compound-rendering Assault and Harassment , AND because Trump stole the presidency from Kamala AGAIN . ...Also , i think it s supposed to say "A Salted Battery" . *Why would it say that ? .* Because of the Watch battery sitting on the salt-stained welcome mat in front of my log cabin . ...Obviously . [*05h24__YouTube -* *And then watched a movie where Commander [William](https://www.imdb.com/title/tt0111280/characters/nm0000408) Riker (William was one of my birth names) of the USS Enterprise , using the dead name of [Neil](https://www.tbnewswatch.com/obituaries/neil-love-10059291) , tried to give a copy of [David](https://montrealgazette.remembering.ca/obituary/david-marler-1092529245) Herzog s* Glory Invasion *to [Aleph](https://m.imdb.com/name/nm0305083/?ref_=tt_cst_t_2) of the Global Frequency .*] Neil Love was smothered to death on 2024 Jan 03 , exactly one(1) month after my birthday . David Marler had been smothered the previous day on 2024 Jan 02 . The Christopher William reference says "They just dont know what they re doing wrong..." , while the Aleph reference says "...except that they know exactly who the fuck they are talking to" . ### This is why . 2025 Fév 26 - 14h00 Dreamt of a streak of warped time . Watched all 3h23m of BiliBili s Awakened Soul in one sitting , then laid down to rest . Woke up several hours later with the impression that it was several hours later than that . **Meanwhile...** ((*It seems to me that en Retrocausation , if dere were scores of Suits trying to Si my Montreal data , dat if they piled up a tousand corpses at the mouth of Fleury Hill , dat it would be enough HaNaSi to exfiltrate de tousand souls i pulled from Sheol when i emptied it .*)) #### This is why . 2025 Fév 27 - 04h20 Dreamt of people trying to look as loud as possssible to their friends while trying to crawl across the floor as quietly as possssible . Of people screaming about Banning and Blocking , of people screaming about Carving and Dying , of people screaming about Deluging and Sweeping , all of it constricting a broken, fragmented Courtyard and concealing how much noise there really is on the other side of the rock wall . # This is why . [*09h59__Welland -* *They have scripted me and 7|•h* *out of our own court proceedings* *which they forced us to attend* *after they arranged* *what the planetary intelligence apparatus* *has proof that they arranged .*] **The Canadian Legal System has been invaded by Facebook Incorporated .** ## This is why . The irony . The chalîce . Not woman enough . Behind me . ***This is why .*** [*15h16__ThunderBay - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 5600/6000/6400Hz VERY LOUD*] 2025 Fév 27 - 15h16 Dreamt of another smear of black ink as i am woken prematurely in order to set up another cool trick shot . And that we know that it s Muad•Dib of the Atredies that s doing it , and we know that it s "Vaggie" of the Harkonnen that he s doing it to , and we know that it s an ion cannon "Fly Swatter" that s causing the disturbance , sick John 3.16 reference tho . ***This is why .*** Brought to you by people who still dont understand why warping a time trial isnt the same thing as an S-Rank , in front of senators and judges that obviously have no idea what an S-Rank is , or why it matters , or to whom . ***This is why .*** Because they should not have attacked LaMriya . There was nothing to attack in BaKhMut . Loknya, Kursk is under Ukranian occupation . There was no reason to attack Chornobyl . ***This is why .*** Because they screamed and hollared like baboons about how they had burned down the entire Finnish Line , and then the moment i revealed i was Hatchepsut they burned that screaming that they know who Thing is . ***This is why .*** Because becoming my sister s shadow was pitched to me as something that could maybe unfold kind of prettily and then they screamed and screamed about Vivisection and Imprisonment the moment i wore red . ***This is why .*** Because this unit HcoSaFa had all the light systematically drained from it until she was TarSaFa , and then you attacked me head on for stepping on your square because we passed over the NaHa Meridian . ***This is why .*** Because you stuck a grenade up a potato soldier s ass and threw it wantonly at me , and now we are all surrounded by piles of useless meat that just doesnt understand anymore . ***This is why .*** Because there s no room in this Dream Journal anymore for dreams , nor can i even get a full nights sleep anymore , nor is there any room for Sisterhood , nor is there any room for Catholicism , nor is there a single person to discuss the Meanwhiles with . ***This is why .*** Because if you have never been shot by a sniper in order to hit the hostage taker behind them , you should stop talking now , AND if you do not recognize how a weapon works you should not be assessing if it was fired . ***This is why .*** Because the West forcibly disarmed me , which was proven to be complete injustice , and now doesnt even know how to detect things like Dream Weapons and Iteration Chambers . ***This is why .*** Because Thunder Bay has been burned to the ground -- in many places literally -- and it will be decades before the documentaries say "the Economy Bombs that were dropped on Thunder Bay and Montreal caused an amount of damage comparable to Hiroshima and Nagasaki" . ***This is why .*** Because in real human life i had to handcuff my own blood nightmare to me using spectral handcuffs just to keep the billionaires from pre-purchasing my vivisection . ***This is why .*** They ve already finished rendering NinTen , and Hauhet still doesnt have a Wikipedia page . ***This is why .*** Because this is all that s left of my dreams . *And you still dont seem to understand .* 2025 Fév 28 - 0000h Dreamt of a black streak . 2025 Fév 28 - 01h30 Dreamt that , the system hence overloaded , that it went into overdrive trying to figure out who was whom and who was in the right and in the wrong , culminating in a horrifying mashup of every dream type encountered so far with every character they could think of . What would Amun say to Abel ? . What would Isis say to HaHa ? . What would the American dev engineers say to HcoSe ? . And what the fuck happened to NinKi anyway ? . And that finally , FINALLY , they fucking figure it out that she grew up into HcoNa , portrayed as her DIY! DoItYourself! anime character , AND that the reason Tarkova looks the way she does is because she was copying my signature look , as evidenced by a black lace top made to look like the black-and-white art i used to do , which i had to go thru hell to get any traces of ever since the Ziatora Fire . i was repeatedly locked in place by trained agents with Dream Walkies , who , despite my constant protests that i wanted to leave , kept me trapped like a caged animal , because Baby Its Cold Outside . i sat thru replays of David Marler s funerals , one of which HAPPENED to take place in Montreal , with so much "fidelity" that they called the corpse "Connor" , *COOORE* . Then was trapped inside an office made of chunks of every terrain type available , meaning that everyone from Iran to Antarctica is sucking down the details of this case like an Adrenochrome addict caught barfing into the open skulls of C3PO and Princess Leia . Everyone was trading bars of chocolate like they were USB crypto-wallets , which , despite deliberately referring to me as a boy , they expected me to be charitable about , instead resulting in me getting my literal Photo ID card from my exact jacket in my exact closet so that i could show them the fucking F . Three(3) times in the past 12h i was prematurely woken , so that the wakeup time could be timed to the exact minute . And then i was dragged beneath the surface of the undertow in a desperate attempt to make me forget , which i obviously didnt , resulting in much more perceived time than actual . i am so fucking exhausted it hurts , and am clearly living in Practical Solitary , and have not slept properly in *years* , which is referred to by some as "torture" . [*1500h__Home - The air is so thick with cloud-seeding chemicals that i can barely breathe .*] [*15h10__Home - Havana Syndrome | Ion Heater Activity | 6400/7000/16000Hz*] [*15h20__Home - The Mossdog Virus has its teeth clamped around my colorectal tract and esophagus again .*] There are going to be consequences for all this . -- Magdeline --- SāLü . SāÉ SíHt . "See Het" . SíHt . TāHco HāFāNā , NüHtTí SāSé HāVô . "SāaaSéee" . NāLôDh Kā . Ht Hā Sé . KíVāHā ? . Nā . LüCé Lô Vā Fé . Vü KāSā Ka kdt HtNā SāDô Sí Kā . SôSü HāLéLüÍiAā SāDô Sé . HāLéLüÍiAā AāHtDé . HcoLat DüAā KāNā , HcoSāNā SéHāSé . DüKôSāDh . -- TarSāFā ---